So I have a lot of people wondering what I'm going through ,..

So I have a lot of people wondering what I'm going through ,or what I have been dealing with medically I haven't said anything to anyone to the point that not even my family know... and my family is the closest thing in the world to me It's not cause I'm selfish or ignorant why I haven't told them I dont want them ,or anyone else to worry about me ... I worry about myself enough for all of us and they have there own issues to live with I would rather them just claim the 1m life insurance one random day instead of years of worries So here it is .... About 11 months ago I was sent to the emergency room for some full body scans .. These scans showed unwanted masses in my lungs and my brain Now to monitor these masses without medical insurance cost me 2k a month ..... I stopped scans after 2 months Now the hospital bills and emergency room costs put me in debt almost 100k over 2 months I dont know if my masses are cancerous or not , haven't had the funds to even think about getting them checked out Mentally I feel like I can accomplish anything.. Physically speaking tho ..... My body's not fine, not one bit I do puke and shiit bloood, it's not to often but it does happen weekly ... and it shouldn't I dont want you to feel sorry for me ... but I felt like it was time people knew what I was dealing with Cause I may not be here much longer, with or without medical help I dont want people to mourn me when I'm gone .... I wanna be able to leave behind a legacy that people can watch and lean on for centuries You can't tell me I wasn't put here to spread joy, cause they don't make people this happy and outgoing for no reason They don't put guys through what I have been through.... then give them the shot of a lifetime with porn and being a public figure .... for nothing I've been stomped on to the point I died (in prison) I've overdosed and been hospitalized 11 times I did 4 years in prison for stealing $150 worth of weed And another 15 months for self harm (making a video while driving ) But everything in life happens for a reason ... what that reason is ,idk yet but it's my path