Taking this moment to spread love to all who not forget me i..

Taking this moment to spread love to all who not forget me in that time I was inactive here for a while. Everybody who keep me up day by day writing me positiv words & to motivated me is in my heart. I know everybody has his type of actions to handle some situation in life, I’m somebody I will never looking for excuses but what I learned to comeback stronger is to go deep in me & working for it. I’m feeling the last days & now much better so I wanna use that moment to open my heart for u & tell u what happens. I didn’t lost my goals it was just something where I need a moment to fixed it & I work in that time a lot on my physical body & muscles. I never happy with myself & myself critic is really high. But the process is much better to last month. I’m happy to feel Strenght back. I had really a lot of issues & pain/ struggles with my body last times. I think Until a point was just that I imagine all that problems because it was hitting me first with the shoulders than i thought my back is done & than my arms …. It was like a never ending story. I was willing to keep posting & posting but I was not me so I stopped that I’m somebody who is really real & If I feel not in the mood & myself I lost a lot of confidence. I was really at a point where I said okay that’s it I give up with, u know I never had problems like that so it was completely new to handle it. I was also not myself I was really lost in myself & lost my focus & Jes u can call it a bit depressiv because I was the whole life very positive & train all time without problems. I’m very happy now not anymore to have that feelings in me & can do what I love the most. I control myself now again & smiling again everyday. I think what helps me the most is to read all your messages, you really caring about me & thinking about me that is so awesome & im so proud to all of u who stay here for long time. Wow okay u seee im a emotional guy who sharing really his real feelings with you. I’m trying to be a strong men & wanna received again the best & beat it again. I love challenge myself & I know I can do it ❤️❤️❤️ I love all of you, thank you for beeing here & let’s keep it again great u know me I know u. I’m Sorry that u was waiting so much & I’m feeling now better to do it ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I love you ❤️❤️