Just a quick life update cause I havent posted here in a whi..

Just a quick life update cause I havent posted here in a while. I dropped the price of my onlyfans from $10 to $5 because of how little porn i've been doing. I'm no longer doing porn as career. I still post here as a hobby. I still enjoy it but after doing it for 5 years and not being able to make any progress financially it's time for me to change industries. I think the biggest reason im unable to be successful with porn is because i'm my own boss. I have nobody but me to hold myself accountable for schedules and work flow and while that sounds really nice, when you have unmedicated adhd sticking to routines is really hard. I always told myself I'd get my shit together and be able to do this everyday 9 till 5 but 5 years on and ive only ever been able to work consistently in like month long bursts then I get bored and put it off for ages. Another reason why I need to switch industries is that getting accepted for house rentals is really difficult when your income is all over the place rather than consistent paid salary. Another thing is even before she quit porn my gf never wanted to do anal sex with me and that is so important to have in the trans porn industry, not having a bf/gf thats willing to top me on cam or film me makes it so frustrating. I've seriously considered having someone im not dating fuck me on camera but im in this awkward headspace where i'm too paranoid to trust the people on the internet that I know find me attractive to see them in real life and the people I see in real life that find me attractive, I don't trust enough to tell them i'm transgender. So i've had no sex other than oral for the last 5 years and it fucking sucks lol. Anyway. TO EVERYONE THAT SUPPORTED ME OVER THE LAST 5 YEARS: I fucking love you guys, I never could have made it this far without you all. I'm still gonna post things here and after i've saved up enough money with my other job to afford the surgeries I want and I feel comfortable enough in my own skin to do this properly I'll give the whole pornstar thing another shot, cause it kinda is my dream job and I want it to work. In the meantime I've made the sub fee as cheap as I can for those of you who still want to jerk off to the stuff i've posted while supporting me, the subs helps me buy food while im studying for my new career just dont expect tones of new stuff getting posted every week and treat the messages like being an old fashion pen pal cause I wont check them super often. Write me letters and i'll write back, if you say "hey" and it takes me 3 weeks to see it I probs wont bother replying even if I like you. Love you guys.