Am I crazy? I'm a single mom of a teenage girl, I have some ..

Am I crazy? I'm a single mom of a teenage girl, I have some health issues and all of my family is in new England. But, my daughter and I desperately want to move to Colorado. The land is cheap and we would live off grid in our semi-large but not huge camper for around a year while we build tiny homes for ourselves (one for each of us), a barn, animal enclosures and a greenhouse. I don't want to be completely self sufficient as in growing and harvesting ALL our own food but at least some while we live cheap and very simply. We are tired of living in a metropolitan area and we actually want to be further away from family... My daughter's father lives in Colorado (about 4 hours from where we are looking) and she has only seen him in person twice since she was 22 months old. She is still at the point where she wants a relationship with him and his excuse is always "the distance" and it's my fault because I moved away after we split... But doing this means I have to quit my job as an assistant manager that I enjoy and we leave everything behind. It's scary to think about but right now I'm spending well over half of my income just to pay my rent and other bills, not included food, thank god we still qualify for food stamps at the moment(that could change next month though). I work all day, then I'm tired when I get home and can barely get anything else done AND I'm homeschooling my daughter. I can work anywhere and do a lot of different jobs plus I have a decent side hustle hear on Onlyfans. Working here I feel like I'm living just to work. I want to get rid of most of my bills and work on my stuff. I love crafting and making stuff that I could sell but I never the time or energy... We haven't said a word to anyone in my family yet because they will absolutely freak out and do everything they can to get us to change our minds. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest and get some other perspectives. Thanks for any thoughts, ideas, suggestions, etc.! Some ideas for when I get there: naked gardening, naked crafting, outdoor showers/baths, outdoor sex, masterbation, gang bangs, hosting erotic camping weekends with guests. Tip me to help with the down payment!! 💋😁 (Obviously more than a thousand but I figured that was a good place to start. 😜)