𝕀'𝕞 𝕒𝕟 𝔼𝕏 𝕄𝕠𝕣𝕞𝕠𝕟!!! 🥂🎊 Can I get a fucking halleluja?! --- ..

𝕀'𝕞 𝕒𝕟 𝔼𝕏 𝕄𝕠𝕣𝕞𝕠𝕟!!! 🥂🎊 Can I get a fucking halleluja?! --- *****Mormon, LDS, blah. The fact is, it took me 33 years to finally say FUCK NO I DON'T BELIEVE!***** 🚩 Everytime I mentioned feeling unsure about the politics, the rules, the beliefs.... I was told to "hold on to the iron rod" like wtf does that mean?! To them... to bury your head in the sand, mind the leaders, and just do what they say until it makes sense to you... 🚩🚩🚩🚩 🚩 Whenever I asked why we did things or believed how we did, if they couldn't explain it, they'd say: some things are not pertinent to your salvation, so you don't need to know" 🚩 I was made to feel like I was weak because I had natural urges such as being horny and wanting to masturbate. I was told it was a sin to indulge and if you did or had sex outside of wedlock the sin was JUST AS GREAT as 💀, my value was diminished, and I was weak. So... I felt nothing but guilt and shame. 🚩 It wasn't until the pandemic hit that I started to allow myself to question all of the things I was told to blindly follow. I finally had enough. I didn't believe ANY of that shit and I was tired of pretending I did. Pretending there is a God that somehow cares about all of us... yet refuses to help. Those who are "helped" say it was because of said God and he blessed them... but then why doesn't he love and bless all? Get rhe fuck outta here with that. 🚩 My family took it hard when I said I didn't want to be a member of the church anymore... Lots of fighting and told I'm the liar and I was the one deceiving everyone... even though I was doing what they said?! The fuck?! 🚩 My family has NO clue I'm even on this platform, rhat I have and enjoy toys, etc. Ffs, they think it's a.sign of pure disrespect when I wear a tanktop around the house. 🚩 I'm showing disrespect by just trying to dress in what I fins comfortable, and ONLY TALKING about getting more peircings or getting tattoos. Yet it's fine for my family to always bring up the church to me and around me even though I've said it is very triggering. Why haven't I move out yet? Well... that post is to come. But... bankruptcy, depression, anxiety, fear... 🚩 Since leaving that church... I've been more and more sure of my choices. But I've got 33/34 years to work through... so... here I go.