So today is pretty cool.. even though it started shitty beca..

So today is pretty cool.. even though it started shitty because I slept in by FIVE HOURS and missed my much needed phsyio appointment for my sprained ankle (which I have to pay a 40$ cancelation fee for rip me), and also had to rearrange my schedule for the entire week to try and catch up to all the work I had to do this morning 😅😭 Today I am the lowest I have weighed in I think 3 or 4 years. I have lost 15 pounds since quarantine started and I plan on losing about 10 more. Don’t worry I’ll still be thiccccc because part of the reason I’m going so ham on phsyio is so that I can heal all these damn injuries so I can get back to weight training. When I start weight training I’ll be focusing on my booty and thighs again for sure which will keep em all plumped up and what not I’ve never been “fat” or “overweight” according to doctors, because I’ve always been well within a health weight range for my height (5’11 or so). However I didn’t always used to be thiccc. When I started cosplaying I weighed 135/140 pounds, I didn’t look anything like I do now. Honestly I look better now than I did then. But the problem for me was that the birth control I was on started making me gain weight rapidly and none of the doctors I went to seemed worried, or even thought the birth control was the issue. I only found out when I decided to get off of it and see what happened. Over the course of 3 months I went from 135 to 185 pounds. With no change in diet, or exercise. People said “oh it’s probably just your metabolism and you are still healthy” and I was like yeah except my clothes don’t fit and I gained FIFTY pounds for no reason???? When I eventually got off the birth control it took a few months but I lost about 20 pounds, dropping to 170. I tried a bunch of diets to lose the rest of the weight (believe it or not this was before thiccc was considered a good thing and people commented that I was fat on every single photo I posted) none of the diets worked, none of the exercise worked I was stuck. I maintained that weight for a while before trying yet another birth control (I don’t want babies obviously). This birth control did the same thing. Everyone kept saying oh just give it 6 months to even out, weight gain is a side effect you can get but it can go away. At the 4 month mark I had gone up to 195 pounds. This is with dieting and going to the gym three days a week (it wasn’t muscle weight I promise you). So I said no, I’m not doing this and I went off of it. Again, after a few months I lost about 15 pounds and dropped to 185, where I was stuck for a year. It wouldn’t budge. And believe me when I say I tried every diet I could think of. I started quarantine at 185, and again, healthy weight, I wasn’t in bad shape, also my physical activities meant I was still very strong. But I was just tired of ordering clothes and costumes online and never having them fit me. It’s super depressing to spend money on things that say they will fit and then they don’t. So I decided to try again to lose weight. This time I did something different - I’ve learned that my digestive system is FUCKED and eating often causes me pain. I looked into this and found out about the FODMAP diet which is about cutting out foods that contain families of sugar that are known to commonly cause discomfort in people. So in addition to exercise, calorie deficit and FODMAP I FINALLY started to see results for the first time in my life when it comes to weight loss (besides just getting off of birth control). Today I weigh 168 pounds which is just unreal to me. I feel so much better and you can see from these photos that a lot of my bloating has gone down. It’s so empowering to finally be in control over my body after suffering for so long because of hormonal birth control, especially after numerous doctors tried to tell me there’s no way it was causing me problems because my “hormone levels seemed fine”. I’m on non-hormonal birth control now and it makes such a difference. Obviously my weight will fluctuate and I’ll have days that are higher and days that are lower especially if I choose to indulge in higher fodmap foods that I know will hurt me. But I’m so happy that I’ve made it this far. It’s funny last year when I was stuck at 185 pounds people kept commenting that it looked like I had either gained/lost weight and it drove me crazy because it’s like no - I literally havent- I couldn’t if I tried. My goal weight is 160 and then I’m just going to work on training my muscles again post injuries, and maintaining that weight. Sorry for the long post this is just something I’ve never talked about before and I wanted to share about my journey :)