🔔 UPDATE 🔔 Hiya! :) Tomorrow I'll finish a new video. Sorry..
Added 2024-09-01 18:30:53 +0000 UTC🔔 UPDATE 🔔
Hiya! :) Tomorrow I'll finish a new video. Sorry for the inactivity, today was a horrible day for my psyche. I don't see myself as lovable & my self-hatred is coming over me again. Most days I cannot look myself in the mirror. Sadly I am very down right now & extremely overwhelmed. Even tho I was at the zoo (sadly alone) and saw cute animals, I just could not get the happiness inside me. Yesterday I just screamed & cried while driving home and kept asking why things just don't stop. I had so much fucking shit happen to me & I just want that stuff to stop, man. Hopefully my ADHD meds will help me. Also having really bad thoughts too... ._. There's so many things that are open ended & stuff keeps adding on top. Most of the time I'm like completely beside me and like I'm dreaming. It sucks very much. I'm so fucking angry at myself, that I cannot do as much as I want to do. Hoping that you understand it.
