(READ ENTIRE STORY) still thinking about this place, and how..

(READ ENTIRE STORY) still thinking about this place, and how badly I want to see the rest of that country. But **hope to never again feel** as stricken with terror and humiliation as I did the moment I was about to get caught masturbating on the rooftop in a Muslim country. **BACKSTORY:** I am in Morocco a few weeks ago. I’m staying in a gorgeous private Riad in the old city. First morning waking just before the whole city gets busy, I went onto roof (visible to hundreds of other rooftops, but again the whole city was still quiet so no one was out except me) and tried to get some content made. **Then trouble.** My neighbors, two Moroccan local men had climbed onto their rooftop (that shared a glass wall with my rooftop) and began working on a project literally 3 feet from my naked body. I don’t even have time to panic, I quickly flee to the far corner of the daybed (still fully visible to my neighbors if they just so happen to glance that direction) and remained curled up in a ball, very still, and very quiet, buck ass naked and clutching a sweater to my chest. I’m not a praying woman but I was prayingggggg I would either die from humiliation and shame or at least become invisible. I could not get dressed, I could not move, I could not get off the daybed and go downstairs. I was stuck there in a very revealing position. *This lasted for at over 15 agonizing minutes*. Right when I thought I’d escaped unseen and the men were leaving their rooftop… my neighbor climbing down the ladder paused…and that’s when he finally saw me: naked American woman, a ball of clothing scrunched up against her voluminous body, with crazed eyes looking right back at him.* we were nearly face to face. That’s how close he was. Right there!! In the moment he had paused while climbing down his ladder and noticed the naked degenerate, he surely he also noticed all the filming camera equipment surrounding me. Ugh. My neighbor met my eyes and exclaimed with a certain air of good humor and knowing “bonjour!!” to which I very casually tried to respond in a singsong “bonjour!”. he continued climbing down the ladder, and disappeared. I WAS MORTIFIED!! M O R T I F I E D. 🫣😅 Being seen naked in public is one thing, it’s quite another to get caught doing something salacious, which is illegal and reckless. Exhibitionism is tricky. The thrill is in the *possibility of getting caught*….Not actually getting caught. I believe all sexual instances, experiences, and exposure should come with explicit consent from all persons. A person accidentally seeing a sexual act (they didn’t ask to see) did not consent to that moment. That kind of experience can actually be quite triggering for someone with certain sets of morals or faith beliefs and especially for a person with history of trauma and abüse. So exhibitionism with the intent of being seen, is in my opinion negligent, selfish and potentially damaging. That’s not ethical. It’s not enough to just “not intend to” do harm, we have to actively make choices to do not harm. Anyway. I was not trying to be seen, and No harm was in fact done. And I found my opportunity to **RUN down from the rooftop** the moment my neighbor went into his house. Moral of the story: I will use more common sense the next time I think to film porn in public. **Swipe for part of that situation caught in a blooper reel** 🙄 **If you're a true fan, send me a tip**. Tips help soothe the humiliation of this experience, and also for sharing BTS with you.