yaooooo 34 weeeeks 🥳🥳 Actually kinda moody so i skipped the..

yaooooo 34 weeeeks 🥳🥳

Actually kinda moody so i skipped the video to save you from my virgo brain. Lip panties and no access to a scale cheering me up a little but issa a cloudy Monday either way.

If you wanna hear what’s been on my mind keep reading otherwise save yourself!!! It’s scary in there! Haha...😳😳😳

Anyway I’ve been debating disclosing my vax status for awhile. It’s the single most asked question across every one of my social media platforms and for good reason! Pregnant women are being asked to make a largely uninformed decision with a lot of very scary variables. I say uninformed because the information doesn’t quite exist yet. Being pregnant puts you at a slightly higher risk for bad covid, that seems largely agreed upon. AND some early studies show it’s probably OK to get an MRNA vaccine while pregnant but even my doctor couldn’t give me a 100% vote of confidence. And when it’s your baby, you don’t want probably ok YOU WANT 100% PERFECTLY FINE. But you also don’t want to die of covid and leave your children motherless. Another potential outcome of this terrible situation. So, you know, that’s sobering to a sober asf pregnant lady. And the SWOT analysis is very individual depending on where you live and what you do (which is what my doctor ultimately advised...weigh the cost/benefit “HOW SAFE ARE YOU” and go from there). Protect yourself. Protect your baby.

Let’s be clear, if i weren’t pregnant I’d have gotten vaxxed in April as soon as I could. But I WAS pregnant so that makes things a bit more complicated and until today I was very happy with my pregnant plan. I had covid last year and tested positive for antibodies while pregnant. Everyone around me is vaccinated and I live in a highly vaccinated area. Numbers were low and dropping. I felt I could safely mask indoors, avoid crowds and wait until after delivery to get the vaccine (and pass antibodies on to my baby (and maybe even my other kids) via breast milk.

Well then delta came. Numbers are rising fast and I’m now in a high transmission area (along with a lot of the country). I know several vaccinated people who got covid (meaning the bubble pad of vaccinated people surrounding me is an illusion...they might not get very sick but i potentially could). Y0ung people are dying at higher rates. There are less public protections in place. It’s scary. Today my son woke up with a terrible cough so I took him to be tested (a four hour line!) and he was negative but i was ALSO negative for everything (including antibodies). My plan suddenly sucks.

The third trimester is the most dangerous time to get covid. The pandemic climate has changed. I want the vaccine. The risk of waiting is greater than the benefit (i think) But getting the vaccine today STILL wouldn’t protect me in time to deliver. (With 4 weeks between shots I’d be due for my second shot so close to my due date that my antibodies likely wouldn’t kick in til after birth).

So basically if I get the vaccine today OR wait 6 weeks, I’m still a sitting duck. I’m avoiding everyone like the literal plague and freaking out every time someone (nev*) leaves the house. It’s awful. Not as awful as the most awful scenario but the fear is real and seeping into every moment of every day. I’ve lost it.

So there’s my Sunday scaries turned Monday scaries brain. Please don’t yell at me for my previous plan (or current indecision). I’ll probably get vaxxed this week rather than wait the planned 6. Hibernating either way. Being pregnant is hard. Being human is hard. We’re all doing the best we can.

Fuck covid. Stay as safe as you can. No one is is invincible. Not even me! (Shocking i know, lol)

k i feel better, thank you. Gonna just make a vax appointment and get back to quarantine panty shots promise 😌

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