Today..... This slave is struggling. It is very emotional. I..
Added 2021-10-13 15:09:22 +0000 UTCToday..... This slave is struggling. It is very emotional. It has asked to cancel things it's doing tonight. It isn't so great. It remembers the data it was a 'sub', when its Master would try to go lenient on it when it was "a bit crazy", and it will likely always be a bit crazy. It used to feel confused on those days. Snappy. Like it was being selfish. That was pretty much the time it's Master identified it as a slave.. "through and through". Its comfort isn't in leniency. The last couple of days because we have had to be quiet there hasn't been much impact. But today, after it melted down going into a shop, he found something to hit it with and he did it's morning lashes. And it cried. Because today especially it was already near tears. But also because it was grateful. And after when he let it worship him - laying between his legs and worshipping his crotch area (not really a sexual thing, just a privilege) it knew it was grateful and this will be the way forward for us, even though sometimes in the past it was hard for him, keeping it in its place, having that asserted including those times it is a bit crazy is how we will work best and be most content.
