Part 1 of 4. Punishment day. The things in this video, as ..
Added 2021-06-04 16:21:41 +0000 UTCPart 1 of 4. Punishment day. The things in this video, as I'm sure most who look at our content know, aren't that unusual for us. This session was planned anyway and initially was meant to be more painful and involve more suffering. However, because I needed punishing, they were used as a punishment. Often what makes a punishment a punishment for me, we've learned, is not the actions themselves. Suffering for my Master is a way I serve him and I'm honoured to do so. However, when the intention behind the actions are based on punishing me, rather than suffering for his pleasure, that's when it truly stings - the reason why is the punishment, not the actions themselves. Please remember that as you watch all the parts of this session... I scream (seriously, I completely lose it in part 4) I cry, but I'm not being treated more harshly physically than any other day... I struggle to cope because I am being punished. And I want to be. Because I want to be better.
