BADTRIP (PART 1/3) Journey into the depths of your conscious..
Added 2023-03-29 14:13:44 +0000 UTCBADTRIP (PART 1/3)
Journey into the depths of your consciousness.
Let's call it "acid experience" if you know what I mean.
This story has two sides. First I will talk about the bad, because the story of the good follows from the bad.
Yesterday I had my first badtrip in my life. I literally thought I was going crazy. My mind played a cruel joke with me and all my fears and anxieties literally came out in the form of hallucinations.
It seemed to me that the whole space around me was full of cockroaches and they crawled over me, over my things, hands and across the floor.
Some lay deаd, in heaps. And from all the cracks in the house mold flowed and enveloped me. I was very scared and the only thing I wanted was for everything to end as soon as possible.
I sat in the corner clutching my hair with my hands and repeated only one thing: «Valeria, it's all in your head, it's your mind, you can control it.»
Breathe.
Breathe.
Breathe.
I tried to focus on my breathing, but I was constantly focusing on the heart area and it seemed to me that it would stop now. This made me even more worried.
Mad anxiety. Hallucinations. Broken breath. Nobody around. Fear of deаth.
I tried to sort out in my mind everything that could calm me down. I was afraid to open the window because I thought I might jump out.
While I convulsively went over in my memory the pleasant moments from my life, my panic intensified.
I constantly told myself that peace is within me, I just need to find it. Only I can stop it. My anxiety is only my choice, I must not let my mind control me.
And I found a source of peace. I thought about my cats. About my friends, about traveling, I remembered about my life. I remembered how cool it is, how different and beautiful.
I looked out the window and saw beautiful, fluffy clouds. I saw flying birds, the sun that was reflected in the windows of the house opposite. I saw an insanely beautiful purple light that filled the entire space. I felt the wind on my skin and my breathing became calm.
I am breathing…
