I thought about it and realized one thing. About my emotiona..
Added 2023-01-30 12:39:06 +0000 UTCI thought about it and realized one thing. About my emotional burnout.
This idea prompted me to another thought.
I remembered my creative path
How eagerly I grabbed at all the most difficult things for a novice artist. How I came to big projects in calligraphy and space paintings, oil painting, landscapes and seascapes. How after that I was incredibly tired and did not draw at all. At the beginning of last year, I picked up oil for the first time. I got carried away. Thought it was it. But over time, I returned to larger and more complex projects again. I need a challenge - this thought seemed to deafen me.
I thought the easy way was important to me! To make it easier, simpler, without resistance ..
But everything turned out differently. I love complexity. I enjoy multitasking myself. When with a burning ass I work non-stop, draw, give orders, shoot videos, run several platforms at once, keep the house clean and manage to do self-development and go to training.
I don't understand if this is good or bad.
My funny feature is to say 'I can't' and as a result come exactly to what I'm so vehemently running from. Because at first it is the my weakest personality that speaks in me that loves the easy way.
But the easy way is not for me. Only difficulties give me ground for development
My selfie set for @suicidegirls 🥰
https://www.suicidegirls.com/girls/valeriya/album/5074275/demure/#
