How often have you asked yourself if you love yourself? Unti..

How often have you asked yourself if you love yourself? Until twо yеars ago, I hated myself. I wanted to commit suicidе. My life was unbearable. I hated my body, I was shy. I constantly wanted to fix something in myself. I led a bad lifestyle, I used drug$ and аlcohol.

But one day I decided to change my life. I was at the bottom. I felt the bottom so clearly with my feet. It was cold, lonely, scary, dark. There was absolutely no light coming through. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know where to sail. I didn't know where to start. I was so depressed. I didn't remember when I was happy. Everything seemed so fake. I was so disgusted with myself.

I understood, that I was an attractive уoung girl, and it would seem, why should I be sad? But you can't get away from yourself. Wherever you go, you always take yourself with you. There is no escape from this. And the worst thing is to be alone with yourself. With your thoughts, with your monsters that devour you from the inside.
How I hated myself.
I can't look in the mirror. I was so disgusted.

My God, when I remember this, I do not even believe that all this was with me. I understand that many people have the same feelings. And there are many such people. This is terrible!

We humans are endowed with such gifts as imagination, critical thinking, emotions. No creature on earth is capable of experiencing this. But we humans suffer because of our own gift. This is so horrible.
I so want to hug every person who has ever experienced such feelings. I know what it is. When it seems to you that nothing will help you. And you will spend your whole life floating on this dark bottom of your disappointments ... And you will never get out of there. This is terrible.

There are also people who devalue this. You know, who say "hey, do something", "it's just out of boredom", "hey, everything will be fine, don't invent it." Please don't ever do that! You have no idea what it means to experience an existential crisis, depression and self-abuse! If you say that, then you have no idea what it is. If suddenly any of you came across such thoughts, I just want to tell you that if you really want it to disappear, then it will definitely happen! You can push off from this bottom! There is a way out from there! And if your desire is strong, then you will definitely do it.

You don't need to think how, you need to do at least something. Even the most, at first glance, "stupid" steps are very important !!! If your loved ones are in this state, do not leave them. Be there, help them, listen to them. They really need it now. But do not regret it at all! Pity is a terrible feeling!

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