Hi. I felt like it was important to update you all. My mom i..
Added 2021-09-13 19:40:29 +0000 UTCHi. I felt like it was important to update you all. My mom is dying. And shane left me. I am not okay, and i dont know when i will be okay. I dont know when ill be able to make content again. As of right now, the idea of filming myself makes me sick to my stomach. Im so sorry. Thank you all for supporting me while you did. Maybe someday i can come back to this. Idk what im going to do for money jn the meantime, but i just… cant. Right now. I havent felt this empty and ugly and alone in a long time. I miss my mom so much and she wasnt even really a mom. I have such complicated feelings about it. And shane was my world… he was everything to me. Without him. I feel ripped in half. He said if i just wasnt sick, id be perfect. But i dont know when or if ill ever not be sick. My friends are checking up on me. And making sure im safe. But for now, this is goodbye. I love you all. I loved doing this. Idk what to do now with my life and my career. I dont know what to do without him. But he cant stand me anymore… he says how much i love him is unhealthy. But for me, it was perfect. I guess thats always my problem… i love to much and im too sick to be loved back. My heart is breaking. I feel so alone.
