I’ve been thinking a lot about this next section of my own h..
Added 2023-02-08 18:46:26 +0000 UTCI’ve been thinking a lot about this next section of my own healing journey. We know that early life trauma leads to a disjointed sense of self and .. whew… I feel that. Especially being Autistic and having to mask. I masked what was happening in my home as well as all the oddities I was experiencing on the daily. I think the only true part of myself I’ve had access to my entire life is laughter and being funny. But it isn’t something I feel drawn to build an identity from. I’ve been working on trauma around my sense of self and trying very hard to figure out who I am. It’s hard for me to hold conversations as I don’t have any true set foundational hobbies or identity markers that people usually build from or enjoy talking about. I’ve had a lot of hobbies and carriers while I sort of faked being a person. People with early life trauma will often tell you they don’t feel like a person. Self discovery most people go through childhood to their mid20s is something I am just now settling into. It’s sort of embarrassing! It’s really hard! This also holds true for this page and how I interact with all of you and the persona I put out. I don’t really know who I am as a performer and I don’t know what sort of vibe I want to put out. I, honestly, just want to have fun and just want you all to enjoy having fun with me. But I think it’s time I sit down and figure it out. Having a strong online identity is a selling point. Thank you for being here and witnessing my orgasms ❤️ Here’s to more growth and open conversations.
