LIFE UPDATE --------------------- 31 January. Tomorow is th..

LIFE UPDATE --------------------- 31 January. Tomorow is the day I get my hormones! I did everything I needed to do. ''But Joyce, didn't you already take hormones?'' Well, yes, I took a minimal dose of oestrogel. These are female hormones. It had a tiny effect on me but not much. Trans people, take double the dose and on top of that take male hormone blockers. I didn't do all of this. Untill now. I am ready for this next step. Will this make me trans? I guess, in some way yes. But I don't like labels. I just want to be a very feminin, fuckable sissy slave. Nothing else. But yeah, I guess trans works too. Today I watched a lot of videos and read a lot of articles about the dangers of HRT and what it will be like. There are real health dangers according to the internet. I am super afraid of diseases. I guess I am an hypochondriac. (Someone who really is afraid of diseases) The tests I needed to do a few days ago stressed me out so much. Waiting for the results fucked with my mind. I was constantly hoping I wouldn't be sick. When I received the call that i'm healthy, I was very very happy. Acording to the internet, there are health risks to HRT. I was going to show these to my doctor tomorow. If the risks are too great, I will not do it. Oh, my weightoss is going great. Yeah I really desire that flat belly, I even lost more weight. It has been difficult to workout this much (running) and paying attention to my diet but its all worth it. Sadly my face looks abit too skinny, but hopefully the hormones will change that. Later that night we checked the news. (We normally don't do this, because it's only negative crap that makes you think the world is on fire) but this time, we saw that farmers are protesting everywhere, and that traffic will be impossible. My heart sank. I won't be able to make it to the hospital. But....... when I want something, I go for it. 1 February : So, I placed my alarm at 03:00 in the morning. And in the middle of the night, i woke up, grabbed a blanket and a pillow and drove to the hospital. I parked there and slept in my care untill 11:00 for my appointment. :) Before my appointment, in the toilet, i made a quick photo of what i was wearing, to show my onlyfans what my daily outfit is. After waiting a little, the doctor called my name and this was it. I was 100% prepared. All tests done, proof I talked with a psychologist. Everything has been done by the books. I did my story and the doctor gave me a few options. 1) For female hormones, he recommended to double the dosage of the gel I am using. I asked if band aids are a better working alternative and he said no. So I agreed on doubling my dosage of female hormones. 2) For male hormone blockers he offered 3 options. The first option was a pill that would indeed lower my libido and give me a higher risk on some diseases. (I can't remember what exactly). The 2nd pill, if taken longterm, it has a chance to develop a friendly tumor in your head. HELL NO. The 3rd option was an injection every 3 months. He said that this type of male hormone blocker works more in your brain while the pills block it from your testicles. It has no known side effects, but it is an injection. He said. He continued and reminded me that I will lose the ability to have erections. I replied with ''how about my libido''? Your sexdrive will remain the same he said. In my mind i shouted : ''OMG PERFECT!!'' In reality, i kept my cool and said, yes please, i'll take the injection. I also needed to do a genetic test for my high cholestorol. It is under control with medication now, but if it is genetic it is possible many people in my family have this and this might be a problem, but thats a side note. He gave me a receipt for the injection and the gels. A bunch of them. I asked if I could get the 1st injection here and now. He said no. A doctor needs to do that. You need to go get the injection and go to a doctor. We said goodbye and I drove home. As soon as I got home, I made a doctors appointment. I called my doctors office, but they had nobody available for the next week (??wtf??). Again, my heart sank. But, when I want something..... I called every doctor in my town. 😂😂 Some where very rude to me, because I wasn't a patient over there, i couldn't make an appointment. But I kept calling and eventually got an appointment for 16:00. I went to the parhmacy to get my medication. BUT they didn't had it in stock!!!!!!!! I asked them what is the fastest possible way for me to get them. They placed an order and I could go back there in the evening at 18:00 to get them. This ment I had to cancell the doctors appointment. At 18:00 I grabbed my medication at the pharmacy. I kept calling doctors. And found an appointment for tomorow (2 february at 11:00). A very friendly doctor. 2 February Finally. I grabbed my medication and went to the doctor. And... it has been done. 1 hour ago. I got my first injection. The doctor was super super friendly, and once we started talking I mentioned I run an erotic store, she loved it and will even visit the store one day haha. That is the story! Always keep fighting for what you want. :)