I forgot to post this, but today (the 9th) is my 5 month sob..
Added 2024-05-10 05:37:21 +0000 UTCI forgot to post this, but today (the 9th) is my 5 month sobriety anniversary.
I know this is the sexy place but I think sharing who I am makes things more interesting than "blonde girl with nudes #42069." (No shame in only being sexy though lol, get that bag girlies.)
Plus I only know you all through a screen. I don't know your lives, your struggles or your victories. I've found in the last 5 months that being vulnerable about my sobriety has inspired people. Not to toot my horn too much. So maybe this will speak to you or warm your heart a bit.
It was really difficult at first but I just stayed focused. I counted the days. "Day 1, day 3, day 15" now I'm counting months. Every month on the 9th feels so special.
I met great people that cheered me on. People I needed more than they could possibly know. Hell even people I've met through OF or online have supported me.
I've been through a lot, both during my sober life and my addict life. I never thought I'd get this far. And I still have my really bad days. But I keep fighting. I keep fighting to not lose everything I've worked for. I don't want to lose my "high score." I don't want to lose my happiness or drive. I don't want to lose the power I have over my life that I didn't have 6 months ago.
I have bad days, sometimes bad weeks, but I remind myself that life is peaks and valleys. Sometimes you're in a dark scary valley and sometimes you're at the top of a gorgeous peak. The valleys suck but they make the peaks extra beautiful.
Whatever you're going through, whether it's a peak or valley, I hope you're doing good. I hope your spirit remains unbroken and your head is held high. You're strong and capable, even if it's hard to see.
Love you all. Thanks for being here.
PS: I got my hair done today!
