i only need 97 for the rest of my weekly rent. last time it ..

i only need 97 for the rest of my weekly rent. last time it was 360, im hoping the price is the same or i will probably just start crying on the spot because my brain damage is so bad now i can't control my emotions like i used to.
im really hoping my old job will actually give me a last paycheck, they said they would mail it to me so i hope they actually do but i don't know when and depending on when, i will literally already be sleeping at the train station 🙄
i have applied for low income housing.
every single homeless shelter around here, is the exact same price as the motel (yes you need to pay to live in a shelter in this state and surrounding states that ive checked and called)
i have called every single apartment that's under 800 per month and the similar response from all of them is: "no availability" or "waiting list of a year minimum"
every other job ive applied to, immediately sends me a "sorry we aren't looking for candidates right now." whenever i enter disabled in the questionnaire they put up.
i am frustrated, just with the processes of everything. you can't even find a room to rent in the student housing complexes for less than 700 a month.
ive found a few motels that are cheaper but they're out of state so id have to travel, risk getting sick again and starting everything over, again, for the hundredth time in my life.
idk im mostly ranting and explaining myself because for some reason a ton of people assume im "being lazy" and uh, my body is just shutting down from years of overworking, having everything (especially the money that was supposed to be for my future) stolen from me countless times, and severe head trauma. so im just exhausted, as someone who's been shanked in the head and has severe brain damage and constant seizures, im exhausted. i want a normal job. i want a normal life. everything hurts all the time.
im sorry to everyone who really enjoyed the content that i was being f/rced into making and wasn't even being paid for, but you're not going to treat me like im a monster because im not making it anymore. you're not going to degrade me because you feel guilty when ive said countless times that no one needs to feel that way because you didn't know i was being f/rced. since i deleted that content, i had over 1k people telling me to off myself, and that i deserve to be harmed in detailed horrid ways because the content is deleted now and i don't have to make it anymore (and not even be paid)
so im exhausted and im trying to pretend like this are okay but they're not. being told by hundreds of people that you deserve to 💀 is horrible and im tired. just please go away if you hate me.