I know I said I will tell you more about the wedding yesterd..

I know I said I will tell you more about the wedding yesterday, but I didn’t anticipate the major mood crash I will experience 😔 maybe I used up too much serotonin on Saturday, or maybe it’s just fatigue, but I slept all day yesterday and been feeling a bit meh today ☹️ I do apologise for the delay 🙏🏼 The biggest news, as you have probably guessed from the photos, is that I caught the bouquet 💐😅 I was quite ecstatic about it on Saturday and even throughout yesterday, as you might know I do potentially have a prospective groom awaiting across the ocean 🙈 but I’ve suddenly lost my certainty and can’t quite understand why 😢 What I loved most about the relation was how special it was making me feel, and I’m not feeling that anymore. However, I can’t quite tell if that’s just a *me* issue, or if something actually has changed and I don’t know how to bring it up without sounding demanding or needy, and definitely not before I had some time to think about it. After all, it’s only been 2 weeks since we had an amazing trip so I feel like I am just projecting past experiences. In previous relationships I always ended up feeling taken for granted and that the « effort » or rather say all the attention that comes in the courting stages (cause it shouldn’t be seen as an effort really) stopped once the person felt comfortable enough and we had a « confirmed » status. And I fully understand that the honeymoon phase can’t last forever, but I’m not asking for the moon either, just random cute signs of attention 🥺 Anyways, these are the thoughts I’m dealing with today. They’ve been starting to cloud over for the past week but maybe being in a wedding setting has pushed them to the forefront of my mind. If you feel like brightening my day a little bit, I’ve recently added a pizza cutter to my wishlist (in my bio), which should allow me to indulge in one of my favourite comfort foods on a day like this, without the frustration of having to slice it with my good for nothing knives. This of course won’t go unnoticed so if you do feel generous today and decide to this little act of kindness for me, just drop me a line to receive my gratitude 🎁 **P.S.:** thank you for getting my video from yesterday by the way, each one of you helped me get a little endorphin boost 💗