im in my new hotel, better prices and i like it more c: there isnt a bathtub like i usually prefer, but! good news on the chronically ill side of my life; i was able to stand in the shower for 30 minutes! i usually get weak and have to sit down or have to take a bath but i was able to stand for a good while 😊
2024-09-02 21:05:30 +0000 UTC View Postjob said to come back tomorrow for audition so im getting food rn and heading back to my hotel
2024-09-01 17:29:41 +0000 UTC View Postif you wanna hang out with me you should definitely expect me to ask for a CURRENT picture of your face so i can confirm who you are. there is no, "oh you'll see me irl!!" this is for my safety, if you refuse to show me who you are, i will 100% assume you're dangerous and that's it. im not going to assume anything else.
2024-09-01 10:15:52 +0000 UTC View Post
your life is worth it ❤️ i promise you
2024-08-31 15:48:44 +0000 UTC View Post"Taken By A Maniac: 2 Years Later" is now live! :)
https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/…=
update; im getting bread now because i know if i don't get it now i will keep complaining that i don't have bread lol
2024-08-30 19:33:22 +0000 UTC View Post
the quick way to my heart: tomatoes, pickles, and dip (olive oil, salt, and pepper dip specifically 🤤🩷)
i wanted bread too but i couldn't find the right bread :,)
💲RinJilsig💲
i got tomatoes and olive oil, and pickles; i get pickles and i get glass storage, so two in one c:
ah yes, here comes to crowd of: "well *you* chose this life!" despite me constantly explaining that my adoptive family f0rced me to work in strip clubs, starting at 14 years old, before i was being assaulted in my own bedroom almost every single night because adoptive mommy really needed her next fix.
2024-08-30 13:39:52 +0000 UTC View Postmy computer is working again! the screen is glitching a ton but i can still use it.
im also currently waiting for the paperback of "Taken By a Maniac: 2 Years Later." to be approved for publishing, working on the Kindle file for it now :)
💲RinJilsig💲 i do need food monies 🥲❤️ everything helps
oh also i bonked my head on the bus storage door. twice. 🤕🤕🤕 lol
when i was loading my bunny suitcase onto the bus this guy tried to help me and as per usual, i feel guilty when someone tries to help me with suitcases, so im like, "ITS OKAY!" *BONK* :,) then the second time im getting my bunny suitcase off the bus and another *bonk* in the same spot :,)
both times in front of a lot of people so that's a great first impression 😀😀😀
but i should be okay, i just feel really dizzy and tired but i kinda always feel that way cause i have brain damage and epilepsy lol so i wont worry too much for now unless i wake up with AWIS, then ill go to the hospital but im trying to hold off until i need a new script... so like tomorrow probably 😅 (3 pills left)
im kinda hungry but also really sleepy so im gonna take a nap because im kind of sore from sleeping outside on a wooden bench, then sleeping on the concrete floor inside the NOLA station, and trying to find comfort on the buses lol 😅🥲 not much comfy but flix is more comfy than greyhound for sure
i might go live later but i also don't have much to talk about but ill still do it to say hello because the places i called said to audition on Sunday/Monday and im praying my book sales take off so i don't have to take off (hehe) (please don't yell at me i think im funny)
something told me to wake up, like that feeling that you're in danger or something, and i wake up to see this guy continuously touching himself right in the train station while staring at me and another lady who is sleeping nearby. so i got a video and showed security and in this video you can see him touching himself and staring right at me and other lady sleeping near me.
the security guard didn't even tell him he needed to leave, just told him to sit on the other side of the station and he started an argument claiming, "i was just adjusting" and the guard is like, "dude i saw the video, just get tf away from the women and sit over here." and he kept trying to argue so now he's sitting down between both security guards and loudly yelling on his phone to someone that he's innocent.
like bro you're not even being thrown out or arrested, you should be grateful they decided to just move you away from us (and not let him sit near anyone else because of him touching himself IN PUBLIC)
and i got a video because every time this happens where someone is touching themselves over and over and staring at me, guards/people always think im lying or over exaggerating so that's why i got a video of him because he had been doing it for a while.
waiting inside the station now 🌹
2024-08-26 14:55:24 +0000 UTC View Post
walked 2 1/2 miles, finally at the train station and everything is organized, ticket is fixed, and im ready, just waiting until the station opens.
2024-08-26 08:39:35 +0000 UTC View PostF.A.Q.!?
Q: "how long have you been writing stories?"
A: "since 2011, I started writing fan fiction on deviantart (i know 👀 trust me, i know lol) then i moved over to Wattpad in 2013. i officially wrote my first original story in 2014 with the worst grammar you could imagine, of course."
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Q: "what is your favourite type of story to write?"
A: "i like writing horror stories and dark romance stories the most 🤭 the type of stories for dark romance i write are very much, "burn the world for each other." type of stories."
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Q: "what character do you relate to most in, "Taken By A Maniac?"."
A: "Marie Sterling, she studies languages, history, loves cooking different food, and rides motorcycles. she has more of my personality than any of the other characters."
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Q: "how many stories have you written?"
A: "i officially have 50+ total stories written, each exceeding 10 chapters in each, 1-4k word count per chapter. ive written a lot short stories and fan fictions though so the number is probably higher if we count those."
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Q: "who is your favorite couple in Taken By a Maniac? + who would you wanna date in your book?"
A: "Oliver and Marie for sure 😊 Oliver is my type 100% because he's super goofy, very protective, and he's kinda crazy. he has NEVER once threatened or harmed on Marie, is never mean to her, he's obsessive and crazy about her and only her. he treats her like a Queen in his carnival."
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Q: "who is your least favourite character in "Taken By A Manic?" personality wise?"
A: "Trevor. he's absolutely the worst person on this planet, an absolutely amazing villain though because he genuinely doesn't have a reason for his evil actions, his only reason is: "because i can." and i think that makes a truly terrifying individual when there's no reason for their actions, no real drive for the evil they do."
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Q: "how many books do you plan on publishing?"
A: "as many as i can 😊"
❤️ this should be my obituary picture 🩷🪽
i think it's cute enough
the stalker/ugly freak who k1dnapped me with false promises of a normal cleaning job and tried to traff1ck me, from New Mexico showed up to my live tonight and claimed to be in the same time stamp as me. id like to state this publicly, again::
i will never go with him of my own free will. i would never willingly be near him again. i do not want him contacting me. i have told him directly to leave me alone. ive told him to stop talking to me. he has been stalking me and harassing me for months. im not going to the state of New Mexico or Oklahoma. i have no plans to travel to those states at all.
trying to provoke me into making porn by claiming im now, "ugly and let myself go" is hilarious af. my face is cuter than ever since i quit cigarettes and started actually eating because i know i deserve to eat now.
2024-08-22 12:28:27 +0000 UTC View Postoh and no, im not going to make porn lmao fuck you 😂😂😂
2024-08-22 04:18:18 +0000 UTC View Post"His, And His Only."
https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/…=
paperback copy is now available 🥺🩷
lol i see someone ransacked the suitcase i dropped off a few hours ago. aethers pants hahaha
2024-08-20 09:30:25 +0000 UTC View Postim sorry everyone who has shown me love and support. thank you for showing me love and support.
2024-08-20 06:47:22 +0000 UTC View Posti dropped off one of the suitcases full of stuff i don't need at the local thrift store. i was gonna trash it all because of the heat stroke risk, but night time is colder and i was able to just drag it to the outside door. and honestly i feel guilty about throwing away stuff when it's brand new and i can just donate it.
2024-08-20 04:00:27 +0000 UTC View Postyeah yeah, i deserve to die i know. i know this.
2024-08-20 02:57:29 +0000 UTC View Posti only need 97 for the rest of my weekly rent. last time it was 360, im hoping the price is the same or i will probably just start crying on the spot because my brain damage is so bad now i can't control my emotions like i used to.
im really hoping my old job will actually give me a last paycheck, they said they would mail it to me so i hope they actually do but i don't know when and depending on when, i will literally already be sleeping at the train station 🙄
i have applied for low income housing.
every single homeless shelter around here, is the exact same price as the motel (yes you need to pay to live in a shelter in this state and surrounding states that ive checked and called)
i have called every single apartment that's under 800 per month and the similar response from all of them is: "no availability" or "waiting list of a year minimum"
every other job ive applied to, immediately sends me a "sorry we aren't looking for candidates right now." whenever i enter disabled in the questionnaire they put up.
i am frustrated, just with the processes of everything. you can't even find a room to rent in the student housing complexes for less than 700 a month.
ive found a few motels that are cheaper but they're out of state so id have to travel, risk getting sick again and starting everything over, again, for the hundredth time in my life.
idk im mostly ranting and explaining myself because for some reason a ton of people assume im "being lazy" and uh, my body is just shutting down from years of overworking, having everything (especially the money that was supposed to be for my future) stolen from me countless times, and severe head trauma. so im just exhausted, as someone who's been shanked in the head and has severe brain damage and constant seizures, im exhausted. i want a normal job. i want a normal life. everything hurts all the time.
im sorry to everyone who really enjoyed the content that i was being f/rced into making and wasn't even being paid for, but you're not going to treat me like im a monster because im not making it anymore. you're not going to degrade me because you feel guilty when ive said countless times that no one needs to feel that way because you didn't know i was being f/rced. since i deleted that content, i had over 1k people telling me to off myself, and that i deserve to be harmed in detailed horrid ways because the content is deleted now and i don't have to make it anymore (and not even be paid)
so im exhausted and im trying to pretend like this are okay but they're not. being told by hundreds of people that you deserve to 💀 is horrible and im tired. just please go away if you hate me.
sneak peak for the pictures in the Erotica; "His, and His Only." that ive written, and will be published in a few days (hopefully it's approved 🥹❤️)
pictures are all black and white with the insta gritty filter. photo style is crime noir ❤️ featuring me as the Alice Coniglio character; in dancer French burlesque style lingerie that i hand sewed myself. CGI weapons 👀, downtown New Orleans, beaches, "tutte le destinazioni" , roses, VIP room pictures, stage pictures, champagne, cigarettes, among other noir type style pictures ❤️
"Money and power play are at stake, it's too risky. But he doesn't care enough to play the unspoken rules of this game. Life is his own game. He is a God and we are all his subjects to play with. To taste. To fuck. To own."
Alice Coniglio is the main female character, she has rabbit super powers 🐇
Damian Heph is the man male character and love interest, he has fire super powers 🔥 the book includes all of these pictures ❤️🪽
this is all photoshoot style! for artistic purposes for my book because i don't have money to pay for a model lol... so i had to use myself + old pictures of mine 😂🩷🪽
im sorry to anyone who had witnessed me having seizures on my live stream. i know i had some because of the way i feel right now... and i woke up to see a comment from a viewer asking me if i was okay. they are uncontrollable but i am still sorry to anyone who saw, they are scary to witness especially because they can result in 💀
i hope everyone is having a good day, i will probably be spending the rest of the day sleeping. thank you to everyone who shows up to my lives still, i appreciate you all a lot 🩷
*sneaking in my rabbit fursona Alice Coniglio in my next story with Damian Heph* 👀👀👀
2024-08-17 00:57:46 +0000 UTC View Post
