Looking into getting a life coach.
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I think it would help a lot. I think having someone to be more accountable to beyond myself right now would be extremely beneficial.
If I have any successful mainstream film makers following me on here that would be down to mentor and work with me (not in videos for OF but for life coaching and things not porn related) I have no problem signing an NDA.
Just going to throw that one out there.
Either way I think a life coach would be wise and I’m excited to kind of have some sort of short term hope and goal.
Been a little rough lately not going to lie but I think I’m turning things around mentally.
Doing all that I can to take responsibility for my life and do as much as I can with work towards saving it.
Got this.
Officially headed to Vegas and LA this week!!
New videos out every Friday and so many more videos getting edited as well I may release more than one a week!!!??
Slowly getting back on my feet and rolling again.
One step at a time but surgery is on the horizon.
So excited.
Really excited for tomorrow.
May finally get some results back regarding the lump they found in my left breast.
Happy to finally be making progress and thankful to for everyone fighting the good fight with me.
I’ve got posts scheduled for every day this month already (nothing crazy but at least guaranteed one sexy post per day) and already released a new vid this month with edits being done for more.
Will be updating here with health status updates as I get them as well.
I had a great day today.
Finally organizeg a lot of my photosets so get ready for some feed posts with those and finally feeling happy and motivated to create content again now that I’ve set better boundaries for myself regarding what kind of content I shoot and such. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
I went to a great lecture at UcLa today about bridging the political divide in entertainment which was fun.
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Slowly healing yelling myself out of this hole.
## Hello there!
I want to start by saying how grateful I am for your support. It truly means the world to me, and I'm excited to share some exciting things about my page with you.
## Common Q & A
***Do you sext, Skype, offer dick ratings, or anything private and live which is sexual?***
Long story short - **no.** I've always believed in genuine connections, and that's why I prefer to create my own content and have yet to shoot anything mainstream. I know a lot of models have teams of people that help out, but I find it difficult to hire others to represent me, as it doesn't feel authentic. That's why you won't find private sexting here, but I promise there's still a lot to look forward to!
### Here are some amazing perks of being part of my fan page:
***1) Exclusive Early Access:*** - You'll be the first to see my new content before it's posted anywhere else. Of course, this depends on it not violaten’ any platform rules, but I promise to share as much as I can.
***2) One-on-One Convo:*** - Unlike social media, where I sometimes dodge comments like a ninja dodging shurikens, here you can chat with me one-on-one. Think of it as your secret lair to my superhero. I'm all ears, and we can discuss anything from comic book lore to the mysteries of the multiverse.
***3) Unique Experiences:*** - Think of this as a virtual strip club where you pay for entry (subscription) and then can tip for private moments! While I may not be able to dance and have no real rhythm, I genuinely do love getting to know all my fans and prioritize those who support my work.
***4) Epic Group Adventures:*** - We'll embark on group quests like gaming events, Netflix parties, and a Book Club (not exactly the One Ring, but still epic). It's a fantastic way to bond and share our nerdy passions.
***5) Level Up in Gaming:*** - You can even snaggg my gamer tags and challenge me to epic battlesss in the virtual realm. Once we assemble a fellowship of 55 members for Mario Kart, we'll start scheduling epic tournaments with loot-worthy prizes for the champions!
***5) Exclusive Merchandise:*** - I'm working on creating custom, one-of-a-kind art pieces available exclusively for members of my fan club. My goal is to send out a new piece every month as a thank you to subscribers. Plus, I plan to collaborate with different artists regularly.
***6) Secret Intel:*** - Get the inside scoop with personal life updates and secret health updates. You'll get the drama and surprises before they even hit social media AND be the first to hear about custom content offerings.
***7) Behind-the-Scenes Shenanigans:*** - Enjoy bloopers and behind-the-scenes content for free on the main feed, with even more epic content available for purchase if you're up for the 💦
***Custom content?***
When it comes to custom content, I occasionally offer some bellybutton, foot, and select talking-to-the-camera style dom content. Nothing too wild, because, well, I need to keep my heart rate in check. We wouldn't want to set off any comic book-style 💥, right?
### How is your health?
It’s been a rollercoaster ride. I've collected more conditions than Pokémon, including an enlarged Aortic Root and Valve, a spine that's more fused than a dictionary in the library of a mime, and a mysterious connective tissue disorder that's playing hard to get diagnosed.
*Currently dealing with the following :*
- Enlarged Aortic Root and Valve
- Spinal issues with 12 fused vertebrae and titanium rods
- An undiagnosed connective tissue disorder
- Rheumatoid arthritis
- Osteoarthritis
- Polyarthritis
- Lupus
- Dysautonomia
- PMDD (This is basically like PMS on steroidz injected with crack.)
- Brain fog due to limited oxygen flow from heart valve
- A lump in my left breast that needs attention
*Current health restrictions include but are not limited to:*
- Advised against lifting anything over 7lbs
- Advised to not run or do anything which raises my heart rate.
- Can’t sit, stand, or stay in any one position for too long due to bluud pooling in my feets, legs, arms and hands. If I can’t move around and get my bluud flowing I risk blackinn’ out. My heart and nervous system can no longer handle these functions on their own without some sort of help.
Emotionally, I have my ups and downs due to the challenges I face.
### But why am I still in the game, you ask?
Well, like any good hero, I can't afford to take time off. It's a tough grind, and I'm working on leveling up my finances and defeating the boss called “Large Enough Savings” and his pesky sidekick 'Debt' before I can embark on my open heart surgery quest. And let's not forget, I have to deal with PMDD, which is like PMS on steroidz and then injected with, well, crack.
### So, how can you join my party and help me on this quest?
In the most straightforward way, funds are like the elixirs that keep me going. Every tip, DM unlock, and aid on my wishlist site is like casting a healing spell. I'm saving up for the day when I can take a break for surgery without worrying about my in-game rent and food.
***Do you have a tip menu?***
I do! For those of you who love menus, check out my highlights section with cool options like adding me on Snapchat or getting those coveted gamer tags.
***Which days do you release new videos?***
As for new content, I'm still fine-tuning release dates, but keep your eye on the main feed for updates on my health, upcoming missions, or potential custom content. I'm exploring the superhero origins of my older, unreleased content, so expect some fresh adventures every day.
I just wanted to say, I'm absolutely loving this nerdy odyssey, and even though I'm doing things a bit differently than other models, I'm thrilled you're part of this adventure with me.
Here's to more geeky fun and memorable moments together!
# Stay super SmartyTeam, time to change the world! 💥🦸♀️🚀
Would you be interested in voyeur style live shows?
I haven’t gone live because due to my health it’s hard to set up but mainly, I can’t risk being triggered by something someone says and end up having another aneurysm but I think if I hid comments and just did like yoga naked for you guys to see that may be doable.
I dunno.
Thoughts?
