I’ll be taking a ride before bed.
I’ll be taking a ride before bed.
2023-11-04 03:31:12 +0000 UTC View Post
ramenslurps posts
Are you more needy for affection or chill in your relationsh..
Are you more needy for affection or chill in your relationships? I am very needy. I need a lot of reassurance and many orgasms.
2023-11-03 22:03:46 +0000 UTC View PostI think I need to practice my bounce more. What do you thin..
I think I need to practice my bounce more. What do you think?
2023-11-03 21:19:16 +0000 UTC View Post
Aren’t you just so very lucky. Do you buzz from the high of..
Aren’t you just so very lucky. Do you buzz from the high of having the honor to simply sit and admire me?
2023-11-03 00:31:19 +0000 UTC View PostDoes anyone else deeply struggle with an inherent sense of s..
Does anyone else deeply struggle with an inherent sense of self? Ive found most people who were exposed to detachment / trauma very early struggle with this issue. Im trying to figure out who I am outside of survival. Along with that comes being kind to myself as I try new things. Im so mean!! Who taught me to be so mean to myself?! Because I otherwise will just stare at a wall for hours if I feel well and have free time.
2023-11-02 17:42:01 +0000 UTC View Post
I like sending these videos from my private perch. Everyone ..
I like sending these videos from my private perch. Everyone below not knowing I’m above, oiled and rubbing and bouncing this delicious, soft body just for you. We just have to be quiet so the neighbors don’t hear 🤫 **filmed on private property in a private space**
2023-11-01 23:57:14 +0000 UTC View PostI’ll let the girls say “Good Afternoon”
I’ll let the girls say “Good Afternoon”
2023-11-01 17:33:23 +0000 UTC View Post
In your fantasy, where is our first date?
In your fantasy, where is our first date?
2023-11-01 00:09:02 +0000 UTC View PostWould you let me ride your face in the sun, even if the neig..
Would you let me ride your face in the sun, even if the neighbors could hear? **filmed on private property in private space**
2023-10-31 19:27:12 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey y’all, sorry that I went MIA again. Healing these iss..
Hey y’all, sorry that I went MIA again. Healing these issues with my gallbladder and liver seems to have removed this mental roadblock that I have been stuck on all summer. I did some research, talked to my doctor and the gallbladder and liver do a lot of things for our vitamin/mineral and hormone systems which influence things like anxiety and depression, isn’t that interesting? So not only did my body feel like it was made of a weighted blanket and I was so exhausted all summer, but these issues were also causing these deep depressive holes that I kept getting into. I feel so much better. I have energy. I don’t have pain in my hands. I don’t get ill constantly. I don’t feel manic, and my abdomen is not bloated all the time. It’s fantastic. With this newfound energy, I have spent the last couple of weeks working very diligently to tie up a lot of loose ends to reclaim myself. I don’t know that people who have never been in the position of a mental health bottoming out will even understand. It gets very heavy and very dark. It’s like being an addict where you’re engaging in damaging behaviors that are comforting to you despite that not being what you actually want to do, but you feel so helpless against this need to stay really small and not make any moves to be outside of yourself again. You feel like you don’t belong and no one truly cares. Its horrible! This past year and a half has been incredibly tumultuous for me in my personal and family relationships. I allowed myself to be mistreated, and devalued and debased by someone I cared about, and because I was so run down, I really felt like I deserved it. I had to use my voice and speak up. I’ve been impossibly mean to myself, and I haven’t let myself actually rest. I havent worked to fix things out of kindness, care and reparenting of myself. You can’t solve mental health issues, especially around trauma that occurs at the “small human” point in your life by being mean to yourself and by denying yourself love. And I know this!! I told therapy clients this all the time, I told myself this all the time, but there was something just in between me, feeling safe and me being able to step into that space of care and ownership of myself. So this is an apology and an understanding that you guys are here for porn and you’re here to have fun. You’re not here to watch me fight illness and have a very slow mental break down, maybe if I wasn’t so controlling in my denial of my needs, it would’ve come faster and this process would’ve overturned a lot quicker. I’m learning that mistake, too. I desperately want to build a space back up to what it was. I want to reconnect with you and I want the space to continue to be real people having a horny, good, funny time. I’m going to get a backlog uploaded, and I’ll upload a screenshot of the calendar so that you guys can see that it’s like happening, but I want other ways is to be accountable as I kind of get the ball rolling again because I feel terrible. Ill figure all that out. I know Ive said all this before. Healing deep rooted trauma and chronic illness simultaneously is a complete bitch. The shame of letting everybody down, of not showing up, of not being able to produce content, and in feeling unwanted in my personal life was a factor in the continuation of me not being able to produce. It is just a bad bad cycle, but things are really turning around. I have really taken the bull by the horns and learned how to trust myself, to just be myself. I got really insecure from an interaction that I had, and it made me feel very disposable and worthless, and I lost my footing and all this other weight on top of me just buried me. But this complex issue is the history of my entire life and the last 7 years of being ill. It wasn’t something that was going to be fixed in a couple of months ever but now that I have my body back, I feel so much better. I feel confident. I can listen to myself again, and I can trust myself again because doing that is what made this page what it was before I got really sick. This has been a huge learning curve for me and again I feel bad, because I feel like it’s only relatable to specific people who have dealt with deep issues. Especially in regards to trauma and personality and attachment disorders. You just disassociate and feel awful and helpless, but you’re the only one who can move yourself out of that space. You’re the only one! You can lead a horse to water but you can’t make them drink. But learning how to be the person that shows up for yourself when you’ve been in a position where you’ve been disempowered feels impossible. In the development of my psychedelic method, I’ve learned that the stories we tell ourselves are what is most important to us. But going from an unwanted, nobody to being an epic hero in your own life is a fantastical jump. It is a dream built on hope and desire for betterment and belonging and grounding. I’m sorry that it took me so long to come back. Everything comes as it does in the end. but I’m very ready to do the work again and I have fun again so give me a couple of days, and we’ll get it started. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Ramen
2023-10-25 22:55:42 +0000 UTC View PostHi all, Ive had to turn DRM on. Ive had it off bc I know i..
Hi all, Ive had to turn DRM on. Ive had it off bc I know it’s a pain to for you all to use alt browsers if the videos won’t load but my site keeps getting ripped. Part of the reason I get so worn out with being prolofic with content is this site rip issue. Id like it to stop and this is the best protection I have. I hate that it doesnt work across all browsers because, with the amount of money OF makes off our back, it absolutely should. Ramen
2023-10-12 12:50:19 +0000 UTC View PostI am alive again. Ive been very good sticking to the gallbla..
I am alive again. Ive been very good sticking to the gallbladder and liver “detox” protocol. Stayed on routine and supplements, got my walkies in, babied myself as stuff left my body 😬🤮, slept more than 3 hours (been waking up at 3am which is common for women with this condition) and finally feel mostly normal today!!! Dont get fatty liver disease!! Whether via toxin exposure like me or drinking or poor diet and habits! Non-alcoholic catches up to people with poor diet and low exercise habits in their 50s/60s. So make small changes now! Content day tomorrow ❤️❤️
2023-10-05 22:19:23 +0000 UTC View PostI hope everyone has a lovely weekend ❤️❤️❤️ And something th..
I hope everyone has a lovely weekend ❤️❤️❤️ And something that might make it better are daydreams about my pussy.
2023-09-30 18:12:02 +0000 UTC View PostI feel like hot garbage today but that’s OK. I have a diagno..
I feel like hot garbage today but that’s OK. I have a diagnosis! Almost every. single. thing. that’s been plauguing me and has been so up and down is a symptom of this. I know I’ve said all these things before but welcome to trying to heal long-term chronic illnesses in America. My mold diagnos took 6 years! At least one came in under 2.
2023-09-29 20:11:04 +0000 UTC View Post
I am a bit hairy right now 🙈 Going to get waxed tomorrow 💦
I am a bit hairy right now 🙈 Going to get waxed tomorrow 💦
2023-09-29 00:28:58 +0000 UTC View PostMy doctor missed some stuff because liver enzymes elevate fo..
My doctor missed some stuff because liver enzymes elevate for many reasons. She thinks I have non-alcoholic fatty liver disease from the long-term mold exposure. It’s actually wonderful news because upping the game on my lifestyle habits and adding some supplements can stop these symptoms that are hounding me fast!!!!! Here’s a video of me talking about it, if you like watching me talk.
2023-09-28 22:43:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Imagine you’re at my feet and in charge of keeping this puss..
Imagine you’re at my feet and in charge of keeping this pussy ate.
2023-09-24 04:51:31 +0000 UTC View Post