Good news! I have a tripod now yay. Also will be making BG content on the weekend which I will post on my page behind no paywall. :) Which outfit of mine do you like the best? Here’s all my links: feel free to follow me on all my socials 🌟 https://beacons.ai/katarinaishii/
2022-01-29 19:12:39 +0000 UTC View Post
Which version of me would you choose?
2022-01-28 19:10:13 +0000 UTC View Post🔥 Tip $5 if you like my plaid skirts 😍❤️ I own a ton of plaid skirts. The last video is my current gaming setup. I feel so cool with two monitors >:) Follow on tiktok www.tiktok.com/@katarinaishii99 I’m not sure I’ll ever get my other account back but at this rate, I don’t really care either way. I’m currently doing all the customs and will add extra to it for your continued patience. I should make a video so sometime to show how adhd affects this
2022-01-27 22:20:30 +0000 UTC View Post
🔥 Tip $5 if you missed my selfies that all look the same except for minor differences. Since my digestion issues have improved, I can finally get through customs. I didn’t forget anyone — I have a list of all the names due for a custom. To make up for the lateness, I will make the custom longer and add special add ons such as masturbation. Thank you for your patience. I deeply appreciate it. Thank you. If you don’t decide to renew, please message me first. Thanks!
2022-01-26 20:53:10 +0000 UTC View Post💕 Tip $5 if you like my weird artistic videos Spam like my posts because every month I will have a raffle. The prize of last month was the $75 GGG video. So, there are free ways to win content. 💕 Unfortunately I got unfairly banned on tiktok so I had to make a new account. I filed an appeal so let’s hope it gets accepted. Please follow my new tiktok account I made yesterday. Don’t spam like on tiktok because that gets you shadow banned or something. www.tiktok.com/@katarinaishii99 Instagram.com/Katarinaishii Join my discord server pretty please. https://discord.gg/XeyJRStd I made my writing on depression into an artsy video. The good news is that my supplements have been continuing to work and so my digestion is doing a whole lot better. Sorry if I’m a bit too depressing. I prioritize authenticity in my onlyfans page even if it means expressing some uncomfortable truths about my life. Even as someone on the spectrum, I never felt “masking” (hiding autistic symptoms or behavior in trying to appear neuro typical) benefited me; if anything, it made me stand out even more somehow. Plus, most people on the spectrum hate lying. I don’t really see any point in lying to people (except my parents — what they don’t know can’t hurt them). Being honest does not mean I say everything I feel without a filter or that I don’t omit personal details. I talk about my depression openly in the same way I don’t hide my self-harm scars — they’re just a deeply embedded part of my life, no use hiding them or pretending they’re not there. Hope you all can support me on twitch; I will try to stream regularly. Thank you to those who have made it to my twitch streams. I appreciate it so much. Hope you can make it to more of my streams! So far I’ve been playing Risk of Rain II, Civilization VI, and Civilization VI. For those who actively watch twitch streamers: what makes a streamer entertaining? What do you enjoy about a stream? What are some advice you can give to someone who wants to potentially get into twitch? I’m a bit nervous because the market seems overly saturated. On the other hand, onlyfans I thought to be a over-saturated market as well but I’m doing fine on here, so who knows what could happen. https://m.twitch.tv/katarinaishii
2022-01-25 20:41:59 +0000 UTC View Post
💕 Spam like my posts and you may win something special at the end of the month in a raffle 🔥 Tip $10 if you want more nudes because my body is getting better and more healthy so I can do it. Urgent care visit was a success 🌟 Tip $20 if you want some anal content with an anal plug and I may try it. ❤️ The fundraiser is for a mirror like this so I can take photos like these at home. I was making content with new BG partner so hope I can have regular BG content posted for you all. ❤️ Will try to post today. 🌎 Join my discord sever plz https://discord.gg/AsZcpXD9
2022-01-21 22:18:15 +0000 UTC View Post
Playing risk of rain on this twitch channel https://twitch.tv/thestormdiver
2022-01-20 02:54:42 +0000 UTC View Post
🔥 Tip $5 if you like my outfit 💕 🌟 Tip $10 if you want more videos like this 🥰 If you haven’t yet, make a discord and join my server! https://discord.gg/JWZ34Q7m (Keep spam liking my posts because I’ll choose two people at the end of the month raffle)
2022-01-18 17:25:20 +0000 UTC View Post
The first one was from when I was a t e e n a g e r and the second was when I was in my twenties. I’ve been fairly consistent in my personality apparently. Hi! Subscribers get gaming privileges when I get my PC parts! Steam ID: 76561198384838544 Roblox: iamnorman98 Join my discord server pretty please ❤️ https://discord.gg/JWZ34Q7m Follow me on twitch https://www.twitch.tv/katarinaishii
2022-01-16 20:03:49 +0000 UTC View Post
I took my kitten out for a walk in the stroller. Success because he loved it. ❤️ Sorry I raised the price to my normal price because it wasn’t actually doing anything. I still was losing subs at a faster rate than gaining and I’m losing money so sorry. I haven’t paid my rent this month and life sucks. I still haven’t went number two in a month. I want to shoot myself in the head but I can’t even do that. Maybe one day I will. I made a discord server plz join 🥺 https://discord.gg/JWZ34Q7m
2022-01-16 14:17:13 +0000 UTC View PostGuess which is mine. I prefer the five factors in terms of accuracy though. I got the same things from the almost same percentage from age 14 to my current age. I have been so damn consistent in my personality. https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test Feel free to take it and tell me what you got :D I’ll send winners a cute video later. (Btw If you want me to be completely disgusting I can, but im going to the hospital today for the prolonged medical issue that I’ve been struggling with. Hence delays in customs. I am honestly absolutely disgusted by how I look atm due to this medical issue. If you knew what it was you would agree trust me… if you want to know what it is, ask at your own risk…)
2022-01-15 20:28:06 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m wearing these exact same pants 12 y r s later… I don’t know why people find it hard to imagine themselves talking to people a bit y o u n g e r than them. I have been fairly consistent in terms of my personality from my t e e n years to mid adulthood. The main thing that changed was I became less pretentious and more open minded. It’s probably not surprising to find out that I had a high opinion of my intelligence growing up. As I aged, I learned there are many different ways of being intelligent and that you can learn from anyone. One thing I would tell my y o u n g e r self: if you think you’re depressed now, imagine how much worse life gets as you get older. Enjoy yourself more. I could be telling myself this now too but damn, I’m not enlightened enough to. Haha. Has anyone taken the five factors or Meyers Briggs? Which did you guys get? (Personality assessments)
2022-01-14 20:41:12 +0000 UTC View Post
💕 Tip $5 if you like these types of lingerie. Which do you prefer? If you want to see me cosplay: feel free to donate onlyfans.com/249714972/katarinaishii Taking a walk but will get to customs tonight. Someone tried to say that a woman’s value decreases as she ages as a man’s value increases when he ages. Says who? They tried to parade it off as objective fact supported by scientific data. Well, says who then? Who defines women and men’s value? Not evolution — evolution only tells us who survives and reproduces — it doesn’t assign value other than reproduction and survival rate. It’s society that dictates women and men’s value. Women aren’t inherently decreasing in value as they age, it’s society that tells us this. Sure, we can say men evolved to prefer youthful features but that preference doesn’t dictate a woman’s value. In evolutionary terms, women are actually more valuable than men because they have wombs and the capacity to bring life into the world. We evolved from mainly our female ancestors; much of the men of our past were evolutionary dead ends who failed to survive and reproduce. I hate sexist misogynistic language disguised as “science”. This narrative that women lose their value as their age is the reason women are often hostile toward each other, prevents them from working together. This book I read called Beauty Sickness really explains well how this fixation on physical appearance is unfortunately unavoidable — even if you grew up in a household which praised only your achievements, didn’t care about how you dressed or presented yourself, you still are f o r c e d to exist in the world where your value as a person hinges on how pretty you are. If you ever make fun of a woman for getting plastic surgery or editing her photos, think about the society that makes her feel she must do this. I hate people trying to make me feel bad about myself for doing something as natural as aging. Is it really such an insult to grow and develop as a human? Should we just off ourselves after 25 because we’re pretty much useless at that point? I mean, I technically have already hit the age where they claim women “hit the wall” and I think I’m doing just fine.
2022-01-13 19:04:28 +0000 UTC View PostSo I will be on my flight all day pretty much but will arrive in New York at 10:30pm (22:30pm). I will definitely get all my customs set up for this coming week as well. Thank you for your patience. If you have a custom waiting for me, I can give you a discount on the full GGG video so let me know (45 min long). As you can see I lowered the price, I didn’t feel I was putting enough BG content to justify the current price. I hope that the new price helps people who are more reluctant about renewing to continue to renew and support my page. I bought the parts for my PC so I’d like to start up twitch! Maybe a discord server even? https://www.twitch.tv/katarinaishii Tips are appreciated but you need not tip to make me feel appreciated; your likes are sufficient. I’m slowly feeling better; your comments and support is immensely appreciated. When I’m back in New York I can go back to my schedule of posting multiple times a day, doing customs, etc. I may have to go to the doctor about my digestive issues though. It’s been pretty bad actually (so no anal sorry).
2022-01-12 22:50:56 +0000 UTC View Post
If you ever feel you are a simp, remember I bought a guy all these games just for him to ignore me completely. Never feel you simp too hard because if anything, I’m way worse. (I’m actually trying to make a joke about how pathetic I am but I hope it makes you feel better and less pathetic). Share a moment you simped too hard and felt dumb. I am getting better. I am not going to focus on subscriber count more, just take it easy, won’t put huge discounts. I leave tomorrow back to New York so I hope it can go back to normal somewhat.
2022-01-11 20:21:24 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m still not feeling better but I’ll try to respond to some messages. I’m sorry — it’s been a hard month but I have content set up so I’ll have stuff posted on my page. Thanks What I’m not going to do anymore is give discounts to expired or new subscribers. That’s it. I’m not really advertising on Reddit anymore. I deleted all my NSFW posts on there.
2022-01-10 21:30:50 +0000 UTC View Post
I’m depressed so these are all in a queue. I probably won’t be looking at this right now because I just feel terrible. The lack of BG content for the month is not because I implemented PPV. It’s because my BG partner has been frankly unreliable in sending me the content of we made; hence me finding a new BG partner when I return. Also, it’s the holidays and I’m not going to fuck someone in the room next to where my parents sleep. My dad is 70 and on dialysis and I opted for staying a few extra days because I wanted to spend time with my family. I’m sorry my subscription isn’t providing you the value you believe it should and other creators provide more for what you pay — you know what? Then go subscribe to them because I don’t need your business and don’t want such an entitled person as a subscriber. I’m sorry my nudes look the same, but that’s how I’m comfortable presenting my body and you’re not entitled to every angle of me just because you pay a monthly subscription price. I try my best to give you all what you want but I have to also do what makes me feel comfortable. So here’s my shitty nudes that look the same but I have severe IBS and chronic constipation so can you imagine how bloated my stomach looks on a person who sometimes shits twice a month? If I had a healthy body image you get i will be posting my body on several angles but I don’t. I hate my body. I didn’t watch the GGG video because I hate my body and I knew I would be disgusted by it. I wouldn’t make BG PPV. The only thing I make PPV are things that make me uncomfortable doing on camera such as Pusey spread photos and masturbation videos. I don’t normally do them and that’s why it’s PPV. If you’re unhappy with what you get, do a charge back. If you’re unhappy because I’m not giving you the value from this subscription, then fucking unsubscribe. I’m tempted to lower my price since I haven’t been putting out regular BG content and have implemented PPV. PPV helps me feel appreciated. No one tips on the videos I give for free. That’s just it.
2022-01-08 20:04:14 +0000 UTC View Post
🔥 Happy Friday! Just reminding you how my body looks like in case you forget. Tip $5 for more. If you want me to cosplay or stream myself building my PC nude, donate to my fundraiser ❤️ https://onlyfans.com/249714972/katarinaishii Creator Recommendation 🌟 If you wanted to see another half Chinese and half White creator, I recommend @erasedweeaboo-vip Similarly, she puts her personality into her content and page, is also a weeb gamer like myself, and is just straight up adorable. Tell her I sent you 💕💕
2022-01-07 22:03:21 +0000 UTC View Post
💕 Tip $5 if you want more wholesome content like this 💕 This is the above mentioned book by the talented @nastyavalentine https://tsegeek.com/nastyavalentine/CYBERHORNY_Nastya_Valentine.pdf I will post later but here’s 8 min with some of my personal annotations and thoughtful questions you are free to answer.💕 If you want to see cosplay and gaming, contribute to my fundraiser for January ❤️ https://onlyfans.com/249714972/katarinaishii 🔥 special rewards for those who spam like my post such as entering a raffle for free content
2022-01-06 20:15:59 +0000 UTC View Post
My 15 y r old art work. 🔥 Tip $5 if you want to see me do more of this. I actually made this post to ask a question to those who are more technologically inclined. So I’m building a gaming PC and want to do it on a budget. What do you think of this so far: https://pcpartpicker.com/list/3QPsHz If you have twitch, follow https://twitch.tv/thestormdiver 😊
2022-01-05 23:33:23 +0000 UTC View Post
Remember: I will do raffles for those who spam like my posts / tip regularly at the end of every month; it’s a free way to win stuff like the video. ❤️ 🔥 Tip $5 if you like my taste in games 🥰 🌟 Tip $10 if you want to game with me 🥺💕 If you have a private wow server lmk. For the full length video, you get loyalty rewards if you’ve been subscribed (can’t have been unrenewed) — subscribed for 2 months = $10 off — subscribed for 3 months = $20 off — subscribed for 4 months = $25 off — subscribed for 5 or more months = $30 off If you’ve been subscribed for over 4 months without not renewing, you can get the 15 min video for $25 Let me know if you’re interested. So I am looking Into doing cosplay and even nude gaming streaming but I have no idea how to go about it. I’m currently in the works of building a gaming PC and setting up my room for the Lego Colosseum so I can have a presentable space to build it. Here’s some of the games I have so far in my steam collection. As I mentioned before, I bought a memory foam mattress, hoping for better sleep and a dresser to make space in my room. I should really prioritize my well being and mental health more which means I should get better sleep, clean up my living space more often, drink more water, and so on! 🌟 Which cosplay would you like to see? If you don’t know how it looks, feel free to Google it. I like playful and colorful costumes the most. 🔥 Cosplays I plan and already have the materials for: Future Diary, Kaguya-sama: Love Is War, Death Note (Obv), Squid Games (how can I not), and more. :-) Cosplay is quite expensive but it seems like a fun and worth while investment. 🌸 Leaving tomorrow so I will be doing all the customs then. ❤️ appreciate your patience.
2022-01-05 21:23:33 +0000 UTC View Post
“Look, Simba. Everything the light touches is our kingdom.” 🔥 Tip $5 if you want to support my cats 🐈 💕 I love it when subscribers send me pictures of their pets. Feel free to send me pictures and tell me about them and their personality. Pets are definitely a great cure for loneliness and depression. 💕 — A little thing about free will When I think about the topic of free will, I make a distinction between free will on a micro and macro scale. We can’t choose a lot of aspects about us; we can’t choose our parents, where we’re born, our disposition and preferences for the most part. I can however choose to move my left arm if I so chose to. I may have a greater disposition to smoking addiction due to hereditary factors but I can choose not to smoke and get addicted. We’re educated by the values of our culture but we can also step outside those values and reflect on them from our own subjectivity. There’s a lot of aspects of our existence we cannot choose and have to accept, but that doesn’t mean our date is determined. We can make minor choices in our lives that have a great impact on the way our lives turn out. Sometimes the smallest little changes you make in your routine can have the highways impact in the long run. Keep making those tiny changes to improve yourself even if you don’t see its benefits immediately. I’m always here to help with dating or emotional advice ❤️
2022-01-05 01:11:35 +0000 UTC View Post
🌟 Tip $5 if you want to see the wholesome video we made 🥰 💕 And most aesthetic apartment / person goes to … @nastyavalentine 💕 I’m so proud of my model shots I took of her. She is seriously one of the most gorgeous women I know. Her apartment was home design decoration porn that spoke to my heart and soul. A mix of intellectual chic and cute & kawaii — she also convinced me to invest in a comfortable mattress. I have a hard time sleeping and am cheap af when it comes to basic necessities so I may actually invest in myself and my well being. (Weird, I know). I thought I had a lot of Pokémon plushies but she puts my collection to shame. I also got her a bunch of cat-themed gifts. ❤️ I will be sending out the full GGG video as PPV later today! It’s almost an hour long.
2022-01-03 23:54:33 +0000 UTC View Post🔥 Tip $5 if you want more content like this ❤️ Feel free to recommend a book you want me to read. Here’s Hysterical Literature Part 2: An excerpt out of Grundrisse by Karl Marx. I’m glad I got positive feedback from the last one so here’s the second one. 🥰 I like hysterical literature because it feels like a balanced intersection between the physical and intellectual — I also like that it focuses on the woman’s pleasure for once and not just about pleasing the man which is mainly what porn consists of (I admit that I cater to this expectation as well). I really want to add audio content into my page, now that I have a better mic, it may be possible. If you have any scripts you think would be fitting for me to read, send it my way. The GGG will hopefully be edited by tomorrow or the next day. I want to thank the subscriber who volunteered (I hope to pay him at least something for his time) We shot from different angles with many different cameras so that’s why the editing is a bit more difficult for me. It wasn’t just editing one piece of footage but multiple of them and integrating them seamlessly. I will try to have two edited versions of it — a shorter one where I post on my page and the longer version which will be up for PPV. Both girls were amazing to work with. ❤️ 🌟 If you want to see content like the GGG, the girl creator who I collaborated with, asianvixen4u , has a lot of similar content on her page. She has such wide ranging diversity in terms of content, and not behind a paywall (a lot of GG and even a gang bang) Plus she was super amazing to work with overall, meticulous, practical, and caring. I highly recommend her page if you’re looking for quality / quantity of content itself (high quality and lots of it). I definitely plan to work with her and Christy Love again. ❤️ If you do subscribe, please let me it’s from my page. 💕 🌟 I will respond to all messages soon, later tonight or tomorrow. Sorry, my depression held me back a bit and my inbox is flooded, but I will get to it! I may not respond as much today because I am going to visit fellow creator @nastyavalentine! I got her so many cat related gifts. I’ll post them once I give them to her. If you want to find a creator who I think is most like me, definitely check her out. The way she runs her page is unique and creative, plus she’s intellectually engaging in discussion. If you do check her out, tell her it’s from my page. 🥰 I appreciate you all. 💕
2022-01-02 20:14:03 +0000 UTC View Post
Just for you guys. ❤️ Will be sending special reward to people who spam like so you can get some likes in. Raffle, as well. This is a video from my new camera! I hope you like the increased quality, I will be posting more BG content soon. I leave on the fifth — so that’s when I can return to customs and do them all. I didn’t forget about anyone. Please message me if you can’t renew. Thanks! 🌟 What do you think of the following quotation: « Beauty always has an element of strangeness. I do not mean a deliberate cold form of strangeness, for in that case it would be a monstrous thing that had jumped the rails of life. But I do mean that it always contains a certain degree of strangeness, of simple, unintended, u n c o n s c I o u s strangeness, and that this form of strangeness is what gives it the right to be called beauty. It is its hallmark, its special characteristic. Reverse the proposition and try to imagine a commonplace beauty! And how could this necessary, incompressible, infinitely varied strangeness, dependent upon environment, climate, habits, upon race, religion and the temperament of the artist, ever be controlled, amended, corrected by utopian rules, excogitated in some little temple or other of learning somewhere on the planet, without mortal danger to art itself? This element of strangeness which constitutes and defines individuality, without which there is no beauty, plays in art (and may the precision of this comparison excuse its triviality) the role of taste or flavouring in cookery; if the individual usefulness or the degree of nutritious value they contain be excepted, viands differ from each other only by the idea they reveal to the tongue. » — Charles Baudelaire, Baudelaire: Selected Writings on Art and Artists
2022-01-02 04:23:44 +0000 UTC View Post🔥 Tip $5 if you want to see more 💕 Tip $10 if you want me to post the second one Happy new year! This is something new I am trying out; please let me know what you think. Here’s my take on hysterical literature (reading aloud while sitting on a vibrator, fighting the urge to cum). I am reading The Rebel by Albert Camus. I apologize for it being a bit fast. Next time, I will work on slowing it down a bit. I have a new camera so I can easily do that now — I got the Panasonic LUMIX G95. It’s my first try though so hope you like it. I would love to do more of this for you if you’re into it. I have another one where I read Karl Marx 😂 What should I read next? I may try to get that wand vibratory thing since I’m mainly by clit stimulation. — And so someone decided to send me hate about what I post on my OF page, how my nude selfies are mostly waist up: I post a lot of body shots waist up because I’m not comfortable with my body, I suffer with a extreme body image issues (body dysmorphia disorder). Shouldn’t I post what I feel comfortable with posting? There’s plenty of pages who don’t post nudity OR BG content & people are complaining I post pictures of my boobs too much? Talk about entitlement. Isn’t it great that I have ONE part of my body that I actually feel confident in? So what there’s an angle I prefer to take pictures of, everyone has that. I really hate it when people complain about how I only post one nudity angle pretty much, I do have other angles on my page, thank you very much but yes, I struggle with intense body image issues and have been hospitalized for anorexia when I went down to 80 lbs. I’m still not healthy in how I perceive myself and am working on that. YES I do want to please subscribers and post other angles on my page but i won’t do that if it will put my mental health in jeopardy again and make me go back to inpatient… I don’t like talking about this part of myself but I guess I’ll mention it if someone complains I post too many of the same angle of nude selfies. Well, you know what, at least I post nudity, so if you’re going to be an ungrateful twat, go ahead and unsubscribe because I don’t appreciate people like you as subscribers. I appreciate people who allow me to post what I feel comfortable posting. 🌟 For those who have video editing experience, I can pay you if you edit the GGG footage. I don’t have much experience editing videos and I want to get it to you all asap.
2022-01-01 19:41:32 +0000 UTC View PostStream started at 01/01/2022 06:58 am Content Warning in the livestream: suicide, depression, mental illness, abusive relationships Happy New Year. :) thank you all for those who showed up. I had a great time spending the new year with you. I am glad a lot of people interacted and shared their experiences in the discussion. I appreciated all those who tipped so thank you. I do talk about some particularly difficult parts of my life in this live stream from my first relationship (which turned out to be abusive) and my relationship to depression and suicide. I talk about these things because I know I’m not alone in them and so if you find what I say relatable, I hope I let you know that you also aren’t alone and can always reach out if you need help. ❤️
2022-01-01 08:29:43 +0000 UTC View Post
🌟 Would it be easier for you to resubscribe at a cheaper subscription price? If so, what price? I mean, I already offer discounts if people actually came up to me and talk to to me … Share pictures of your cats or memes plz. (SpongeBob or anything but I love me some good SpongeBob memes) — Most of my life, I grew up alone and without friends. I was often alienated from my peers for being too “weird” and bullied for my awkward mannerisms. I adapted early to primarily online communication since my closest friends were my online ones I met from games like maple story and WoW. I felt it was easier to express who I was online because their perceptions of who I am was not filtered by behaviors out of my control such as tics and speech irregularities. I am judged solely by the ideas I express in our conversations which I think are more representative of my being anyways. I don’t really need any in real life interaction because I feel my online ones fulfill the same social need. I grew up feeling ugly and undesirable. I grew up believing I was “retarded” because I was diagnosed on the spectrum at s e v e n years old. I was called a retard too many times to count and at this point I use the term to spite them. Growing up ugly made me feel I had to develop my other faculties such as my personality and intellect. I’ve been told you have an “ugly girls personality” whatever that means lol. For most of my life I overly identified with my intellect, basically subsumed who I was (I saw myself as a “brain in a vat”). All throughout my schooling years, I was bullied relentlessly even when I actually tried to fit in and be normal. At that point I felt there was no need in pretending so I decided then and there to stop caring about what anyone (except my family) thinks and just focus my concern on creative self expression and my ethical conduct with my interactions in the world around me. I encountered far too many cruelties in my life; I don’t want to add that to another person’s life by being cruel myself. I want to be the person that reminds people there’s still goodness left in the world, that makes them feel hopeful and forgiving. I want to be the person who makes them feel heard and understood. A big reason why my Onlyfans focuses on emotional support is because it’s lacking in the world for men. I don’t think there’s proper resources dedicated to men in many places, for example men as sexual abuse victims (which we can’t forget do exist). So much of men’s emotional outlets are channeled into violence, sexual energy is a much better means of emotional relief — I want to offer a mixture of both — hyper-focusing on the sexual at the expense of the emotional will only leave you unsatisfied because you will be left with all the emotional pain you had to begin with, you’ve reached the end but there’s no resolution. Repression causes more repression, till they pile up and you don’t know which of your problems are caused by the other, and so on. Emotional expression helps heal emotional suffering — although it may be initially difficult and perhaps painful, you learn a lot about yourself as both a sexual and emotional being. You learn to see what you are truly deserving of as a person — I will tell you what that is: you deserve to be listened to, you deserve to experience what you experience (if you feel sad, then be sad. There’s no comparing sadness or that someone doesn’t have a right to feel sad because another has it worse). You deserve to be respected as a human being (the Kantien in me) with means of his own. A huge social issue for me is the high male suicide rate — partly the lack of emotional resources available just for men (and stigma). My ex committed suicide when he was 22 (he should have been 28 now); I wish there was a way he could have been helped. It’s hard not to feel guilty or think I could have actually prevented it; all I can do is try to prevent future suicides from occurring by being emotionally receptive and open.
2022-01-01 02:59:07 +0000 UTC View Post
Some pictures of things in my life that have brought me joy. Who’s also a loner and doing nothing tonight? I wonder if you can listen to copyrighted music on live stream. 🔥 Tip $10 for a sexy audio recording 🌸 Tip $20 for a sexy audio recording + I can draw you a picture on my tablet of what you want ❤️ Tip $30 for all the above + surprise Plus last day for cock rating narrative being $50
2021-12-31 23:38:05 +0000 UTC View PostI made one of these corny “vision boards” for TikTok. One of my favorite subscribers made me a list of tik tok trends to do 🥺💕 if you’re good at tiktok, feel free to help me with this lol www.tiktok.com/@katarinaishii I would like to travel more this next year though. I just like making these videos way too much. What’s your goals for the new year and what will you do to achieve them? 💕
2021-12-29 23:27:01 +0000 UTC View Post