LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- I am kinda frustrated at the moment to be honest... :( I am in this stupid in between phase and I hate it haha. My hair is such a big big big mess. It is not long, it is not short, it is all over the place and I can't get a haircut because I'm letting it grow. Things cannot go fast enough right now haha. Also struggling a lot with what to wear during summer. I don't feel comfy yet to go out in public wearing a dress, but my standard g-to outfit, (leggins and a oversized t-shirt) is just too warm! I need to try different things. Bleghhhhhh........
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------- As you know, I had some doubts and hesitations about HRT. Every time I get my male hormone blockers (happens once every 3 months) I start to doubt myself and become hesitant. But I know these doubts and feelings are not right, so I continued and once I received it I am very happy I continued.
Yesterday, I had an Hifu treatment on my face and belly. This is a skin thightning treatment without surgery. Not that I really badly needed it, but I lost a lot of weight since my HRT journey, and I notice that if I lose a little bit more weight, I might get lose skin. This was very expensive but it really helps a lot.
This motivated me again. ^-^ Today I have an appointment for my nails again. I think i'll just keep the same color. It fits sissies pretty well.
Haven't spend much time on finding a Master, the sissy market kept me busy with a record amount of orders... haha. But we hired some help now... so that I can focus on serving men and sucking cock like I always was ment to be doing.
How to find a Mistress / partner that supports your sissy lifestyle ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Many have called me lucky to have found someone like Princess Diamonds who supports me and pushed me deeper down the sissy rabbit hole. And it is true, I have been lucky to have princess diamonds. But finding a Mistress and/or partner has nothing to do with luck. If you think that it's about luck, you immediatly give up on your search and doing your best to increase your odds. Some luck is involved I guess, but you can increase your odds so much, that your odds of finding someone becomes 100%. Here is how to increase those odds.
1. Work and invest in yourself Your own happyness is super important. Your own mindset, your health, getting better at these things all increase your chances. For example : Buy that pretty dress you always dream about instead of giving it away to findom. Workouts, mental health, diet, all of these things help...
2. Be honest to yourself and to others Accept who you are, if you are ashamed, you will not be attractive (unless is a humiliating kink setting of course haha). Be proud of your kink. Be upfront about it but perhaps don't be super comfrontational either. Say : I love to be submissive to you and treat you like a princess! Don't say : Lock me in chastity, spit on my face and call me loser. Say something they might like. Who doesn't want to be treated like a princess?
3. If you are a sissy, don't top from the bottom. This is the biggest turn off for many Doms. This means you are tellign the dom(me) what YOU like. ''My fantasy is this, my fantasy is that''. Instead say : ''Shall i do those dishes and rub your feet princess?''
4. Put yourself out there, make your profile look good and be active Go on dating sites, make a good looking profile and put yourself out there! Be honest about your submissive nature right away. If you ar ehonest, some might immediatly say no or skip you, but some will actually enjoy it!
LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- Almost 3 days of no post?! I am sorry about that. I had some difficult times. Today was the day I received the medication I need to block my male hormones (once every 3 months). The week before all that, I get very emotional and a lot of doubts and bad thoughts. I feel selfish for wanting this. I know this is just a stupid phase filled with wrong thoughts and I need to push trough it. So i did. I just got my medication. I am thankfull for the support I received and the advice from family, friends and princess diamonds. The stress is gone. I did it, its over. I did the right thing. *sigh of relief*
There are so many cool things about HRT. Many times you will experience ''your first time'' of things and it makes you happy. For example, the first time I got a feminin haircut. Or the first time I had my nails done, or my eyelashes.. The first time a guy made me shy... The first time you cry from a movie haha... When things like this happen to you, you start to realize that hormones do have an effect. Because it is so slow, you sometimes wonder if it does anything or not haha. This reminds me of last week. When I encounter a real dominant person, I had the priveledge of getting to know a few of them in my life. For example Goddess Annie. I truely believe she is above me. It is not a game. When I see her, my eyes go to the ground and my behaviour changes from playfull to submissive. It is instict, it is something deep down in me that changes. I only had this experience with women so far. But last week in the sissy market, a guy entered our store. He looked nice, he wore neat clothes. A suit I think. And I had that same vibe. He was walking around in the store checking out our products and that made me nervous and submissive. I said to myself ''please don't be a sissy please don't be a sissy'' 😂😂😂🤭 If he would buy panties, it would be a turn off for me haha. A true dominant guy, one I can really submit to, can't be wearing panties for some reason haha. Just my taste I guess. Perhaps that is why I don't want a switch. He went to the counter where i was located and he placed down some lube and a fleshlight. I was relieved. I took the 2 products and scanned them. I tried to chat and be friendly but i failed miserably from being nervous and shy. That was my first time a guy made me shy and nervous haha.
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------ Oooff, it is almost midnight in Belgium as I am writing this. I am super super tired. Last 2 days were amazing. First I had a pretty awsome shoot and I fucked myself really good. (Same outfit as the picture) and i'll post it somewhere next week I think. Today I didn't post anything sooner because I had to get up early to go to a qualifier for a magic the gathering tournament. (It's a cardgame) And.. I lost in the quarter finals... I always end up int he top 8, but I can't seem to finish it. But I had a lot of fun so it is fine. Perhaps I should practice more, I could be the first sissy on the pro tour! :D After that, Princess Diamonds took me to see the deadpool & wolverine movie and it was amazing. I laughed so hard. 6 Months on hormones and feeling gooooood. Enjoy your weekend too! I'm going to bed. And I think it is time for you to put on this chastity cage! Goodnight xxx Joyce
MY 6 MONTHS ON HORMONES STORY ------------------------------------------------------------------ As I am so feminized now, I feel comfortable to share all the details and even a picture of what I used to look like as a vanilla guy before I got turned into a permanent sissy slut. I hope this story helps anyone out there. <3
A couple more pictures in this outfit for you 🥰 Hope you had a nice weekend! The chastity cage i'm wearing is my own designed sissy joyce cage and its exclusive on the sissy market.
Whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii finally new pictures! And my first lifestream. I'm sorry it took to so long. I had so much to do and I had to re organise everything. I am glad to be back. I'm also super horny so i'm going to look for some dick next week. Of course at the same time I'm still on the lookout for a Master. I hope you are ready for some new spicy content!!
I reached pixie haircut level 🥰🥰🥰 I love it. Also won the pre release bloowburrow magic the gathering event yiiii haaaa woop woop 😊😊 Also got a new watch. My first girl watch. 🥰
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------- I know my content hasn't been that great the last weeks. But you know, when that is the case it means I am spending a lot of energy on feminization! Lip fillers was a big step you know! And the eyelash extensions also give me a permanent feminin look on my face... I am currently also in the hardest month when it comes to work. But I am going to start getting help and re organize everything. Even though i LOVE doing it, I shouldn't be spending time fullfilling orders from the sissy market or helping customers in the store. My dream is to suck cock for a living, and serve men as a real slave!! I feel like I am at my lasts weeks where I could pass as a guy. My hair is getting really long now. This is so weird. I might upload a little bit more content from the past to entertain you during this gap. Of course I will still make new content aswell. Probably tomorow even! ^_^
LIFE UPDATE -------------------- Feminization from the HRT is going great!!! I feel like I can't post old content or even content from last month anymore because I change so fast! Every part of me has changed a little bit somehow. Sadly, my libido isn't always shy high like a sissy should supose to be. That sucks a little bit but eventually it will come back. Plus i don't need to be horny, I just need to let me holes get used right?! I'm abit scared for my next steps. I need to give away more tasks from my job, so that I can focus on becomming a real life sissy slafe... I'll keep you updated.
It is Sunday 💖 I am currently working hard to give a lot of my work out of hands so that I can focus fulltime on being a sissy slave. I currently still have to spend a lot of days packing orders for the sissy market or working at the store or doing bookkeeping etc. While I rather just be a fulltime fuck doll. 🤭
HORMONES UPDATE AND PROGRESS PICTURE ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I just took these selfies 3 minutes ago. My lips are still bruised but healing. You can also clearly see my eyelashes. Yeah, I don't think I pass as a guy anymore haha. I don't mind. I am a sissy slave and I should act and dress acordingly. Still looking for the right Master. Joyce did finally experience the ''emotional'' part from HRT. They say, when you go on HRT, you are more emotional. I never was very emotional. But this week, damn..... Like for example, yesterday, I was sitting in the car, and I read a cute text on my X Page, and I started crying. I slapped myself and said wtf is happening to me! Hormones are weirddddddddddd haha My hair is still a mess but its growing.
Some of the many clips with a cock inside me. Have you ever sucked cock? For me, this used to be a big step and for a long time i didn't dare to cross it.
some tips for Doms to '''convince'' their sissy to suck cock. - Keep them locked up in chastity untill they give in. - Any pleasure a sissy gets has to be associated with cock, so their brain learns cock = pleasure. - Compliment and reward behavior and fantasies about cock
Some tips for subs to get over it and suck cock - Be in the right zone (long time in chastity) - Be safe, ensure your safety, don't take risks - Just do it you scary little bitch 😂💖🤭
Eyelashes check! I am also very happy to see that my lips are healing good haha. I was so scared! I am very happy with the eyelashes. They look very feminin. You can still see my lip is bruised but overal I am happy with the results. I also lost some weight with all the stress and i'm happy with my body now aswell. Just my hair, my hair is a mess and needs to grow faster. 😂😊
Goodmorning! 💖 In a couple hours, i'm going for eyelash extensions! It's not a permanent thing but you can't remove them for a couple months. I am, once again, a little bit scared. When the feminization changes come too fast, I panick. But once I get used to the change, i feel very happy. There is some feeling of guilt in me. I feel guilty and selfish for feminizing myself and making my family and friends (and girlfriend) go through it all. But, I am also smart enough to know that I should not give in to those negative thoughts and that those feelings are wrong. Not my best days right now, but it will get better. I just wanted to share the truth with you, not just the good and happy days but the ups and downs.
FEMINIZATION PROGRESS -------------------------------------------- So today I woke up and drove to Ghent, a clinic for fillers. I make sure it is done proffesional and with safe products. (No permanent fillers). These fillers slowly reduce after +- a year, or, if you dislike the result, they can even disolve them. I woke up very early and I had a lot done to be honest. A little bit of filler under my eyes, my chin, and then the big scary thing. My lips. I knew I didn't want to go extreme. Bigger, feminin lips but still natural. The doctor warned me, that after the procedure, the lips will have some swelling and they will look huge but that will reduce a lot over the following days. I just went yolo and did it. Of course everything was painful, but pain is never something that is a factor or something that will hold me back. But it did hurt abit. When I arived at the car, I indeed noticed my lips where HUGE. I panicked a little bit. ''What have I done?, Am I not taking things too far? I should have just been happy with the way I was'' I started to have even more darker thoughts like ''Why the hell am I doing this to myself'' and ''Maybe I should just quit, stop this nonsense and go to the gym and workout'' Very emotional thoughts. (Blame it on the hormones?). When my girlfriend, Princess Diamonds saw me, she didn't compliment me or made me feel better, instead she told me she thinks its ugly. I receive(d) no support. I rushed to the sissy market to work. I am super tired and beaten down. My lips are blue and my face hurts. I didn't eat and I have tons of work to do. I think I took 100 pictures of myself during my workday, hoping the swelling would go away. I am/was scared. To be honest, I kinda like it, but I think the change is too big and too fast. I really panicked. Still, no support from my girlfriend. When I confronted her, I got the ''Sorry you feel offended by the truth'' treatment. I feel abit more insecure than before. Now, the swelling has indeed gone down by a lot (see photo) and it is barely noticable. You can see it, but it is already a lot better. Sometimes I really don't feel good about myself. But I trust the doctor. Its a proffesional. Surely they didnt make things worse. And worse case scenario, I can reverse it. I realized that, when the steps in feminization happen too fast and too suddon I panick and get scared... Anyway, I clearly didn't learned my lesson as tomorow i'm going to the city ''Hasselt'' to get eyelash extensions. 😂 I'll get over it. Me am strong!
