This month is feminization month. It feels Like I am taking the last few steps. Tomorow I'm getting fillers in my face once again. The day after that big fake eyelashes. And Yesterday I had my nails done. Very pink and long. Now all I need is the perfect Master. I am very selective indeed, but that is because it is not a game for me. I am dedicating my life as a sissy slave to my new Master.... So yeah... Also many new things happening next month. 1) My best friend (male employe at the sissy market) is leaving. We came to an agreement that it is best for eachother. Working with best friends just sucks because you only talk about work. 2) New scedule for me by the end of the month, 1 day/week where i will be streaming on onlyfans, streaming on twitch too!! Caya (sissy coaching) will also start within a month...
Once I found my master (or mistress by the way!!) I also plan to only work 2 days for the sissy market and spend the rest of my days as a sissyslave.
It is easy with all the feminization going on to forget what I am working towards. I want to become a submissive true sissy sexslave. So I took a few humiliating pictures to remind you of my purpose in life. X
HORMONE PROGRESS UPDATE ------------------------------------------------------- Still a little bit frustrated with how slow the progress is. The drop of my libido has been taken its toll on my content and thank you for supporting me and being there for me regardless. My libido is slowly comming back as i sometimes get intense cravings to be submissive and cock. I have been chatting with a guy online who I like. In these pictures, you can see some hair growth, some boob growth, and my body with 5 months HRT.
Right before I started HRT, I went to Mistress Laura her home. She ''encouraged'' me to continue when I was having doubts. She made me worship her and she fucked me. I went home humiliated and submissive...
After almost 2 weeks I finally took some time to fuck myself and daaaaaaaaaaaaaamn it was nice 🤭 I really needed that. The frustrations of not getting real dick whenever i want to is anoying.
2 Hours later and i'm wearing my wig again haha. Feeling much more like myself 😊 I have been wearing my chastity cage for a loooong time now. But what about you? You know sissies belong in chastity right! You need to learn to cum from anal pleasure!
Hormones progress update : What I look like today without a wig. Just did my make-up and took a few pictures 🥰 My hair is growing but its taking so freakin long. Meanwhile : Feeling / craving being very submissive. I really need a master... Damn...
Last weeks I didn't upload as much content as before, but for good reasons 😊😍 As you can see, I have been making a lot of progress in my feminization. My body looks very soft and feminin and much better than ever before. The hormones, strict diet and workouts have been doing so much. I feel very good about myself now. I just have a few more things left : - Fillers in my upper lip (a little bit bigger, not too much) - Fillers to make my face look abit thicker, you can't see it on the pictures so well but thanks to the weightloss, my face looks too skinny. - 1 laser hair removal session for the last few facial hairs i have left. (its not much, but still) - 1 More microneedling appointment (to make skin on your face smoother) - Permanent fake eyelash extensions. All planned this month. I'll show my titty progress tomorow! ❤️
I remember this video, we made it right before I started Hormones. Mistress Laura actually supported me a lot and encouraged me, together with princess diamonds of course...
HORMONES UPDATE ---------------------------------- 5 months on HRT. My boobs hurt!! When i'm wearing a t-shirt, you can clearly see my breasts. They are growing, but slow... I spend a lot of time on my looks, I think I reached a very weird milestone. I feel more uncomfortable in public as a guy than as a girl haha. I never thought that moment would come. I still have so much work to do and so much things I can do to become more feminin and pass. I am impatient and frustrated. I hate that my hair grows so slow. Wouldn't mind a hot strong guy who pushes me in the right direction too haha. I won't give up.
LIFE UPDATE --------------------- Making lots of exciting progres! 😗 My weight is going in the right direction and I just had another microneedling treatment to make my face look more smoother and feminin. Later this month I still will get some fillers and a laser hair removal session. Lots of treatments to transform myself into the best fuckable sissy slave possible. Also been keeping myself plugged most of the times. That feels nice. Abit more work to do in the sissy market today... 🥰 Hope you have a nice day too xxx Mwah
10 Years ago, my very first girlfriend told me to wear lingerie for her and I have been submissive ever since. I have become more and more feminized and more of a slut. Then I got fucked multiple times. After my last bit of masculinity got fucked out of me, I decided to go on HRT. This calmed my libido down a little bit, but now I feel so good as a feminized sissy fuckdoll that I can't and don't want to go back. How cool is that?! I am so lucky to be a human cocksleeve. I wish my name was Joyce Cocksleeve haha 🤭
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------ Took a few selfies in the mirror for you today, showing that I'm still locked up in my own designed chastity cage from the sissy market 🤭
Yesterday was the first time ever that I bought expensive make-up. Like, 70 euro for 1 bottle of foundation, 50 euro for eyeliner etc. I always used cheap make-up before. I must admit that the difference is HUGE!! If you can afford it, I can recommend buying high quality make-up.
I know my closet is messy haha, I have spend the entire day organizing my closet.
Oh and I also made my first youtube video but I still need to edit it.
I Loooooove playing games 🤭 I am a total sissy nerd haha. On the comlputer I like to play Oldschool runescape and practice magic the gathering, I used to play world of warcraft for a long time. I also have a playstation 5 and I just got the avatar game and i can't wait to try it.
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------ I just arrived at the sissy market and I wanted to show you my entire outfit. Wearing shorts like this in public is kinda new for me, but i don't mind it. I wish I could wear more subtle things that shows everyone I am a sissy. Perhaps a tattoo of some kind.
A few things happened lately that inspired me for a new idea. I had a lot of customers who come to the store and say they want to be like me but feel too old, too big, too small or they are stuck in their personal life. And then today, I had my 2nd workout with the personal trainer (we paid extra attention to my neck haha). But I really feel a lot of compasion and understanding for other sissies, because I come from the same place as them. And with all the experience I have.. I feel I can really help them and make a difference.
So... Perhaps I should offer sissy coaching, and use the brand name ''caya'' for this. (Caya = Come As You Are). I could create a team of personal trainer(s) and psychologist and myself with first hand experience who could all offer help. I know a lot about : Muscle loss Workouts, food Hormones Feminization Sexwork Make-up, clothes And I also believe thanks to my experiences and mindset, I could help others just by talking...
This needs to be affordable, but also it needs to be worth my time and help pay the bills of course... I'd like to buy expensive laser hair removal equipment and an expensive weight scale for these things too.
I was thinking to sell coaching sessions per hour. 1 Hour would be $50-$60... I am not sure yet. I would only like to do this for 1 or 2 days per week, because the rest of the week, I would like to focus on my own sissyfication and become a good sissy bitch. But I could spend 1 or 2 days helping others this way.
HORMONES UPDATE --------------------------------- Sharing 2 selfies I just made.. to show you the ''behind the scenes'' too 🤭 I just got out of the shower, so forgive my bad hair. I am taking hair growth supplements and it is helping. But I think to speed things up, I could just go for extensions eventually... who knows. 1 More week and I'm 5 months on HRT. My experience so far has been amazing. I notice that I am more happy when I feel that I look feminin and less happy when I think about my masculine features. I dont like how slow HRT actually is haha. Sometimes I wish the transition would go faster, but I guess I need to have patience. The boobs still hurt, but I don't notice that much else. The people around me do tell me i look more feminin, but I guess its harder to see the progress on your own. I haven't noticed anything else that I can share. I will keep you updated.
LIFE UDPDATE ------------------------------- De pain is gone and I am feeling so much better haha. Today I am working at the sissy market, Belgium has to play its football match in 1 hour, I hope we will get no visitors so that I can watch it haha.
I made some quick selfies today. I do really think i see some progress and that makes me happy. But the real question is...
LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- What. A. Stupid. Week. AAaaaaaaaaaghhhhhhhhh I want to throw something and peg someone. Dammit I am annoyed. My neck has been killing me... I am happy that It's almost over now... My neckpain gave me a bad mood, and when im in a bad mood I start to doubt myself again and ask myself stupid questions or say stupid things to myself like : ''I will never be a pretty girl'' ''Why am i doing all of this...'' Etc etc. Is this wat mood swings are? I wonder if HRT has anything to do with it. Thank god the pain is almost over now.
This video is made in the beginning of my hormones journey (so almost 5 months ago). I was so horny and ready to start. I think I fucked myself every day. If i see this video, I do look a lot more feminin and skinnier now compared to then ^^
One of the few pictures of me with a blonde wig!! Made with halloween last year (before hormones) 😅😂 1 More week and I am 5 months on HRT. Can you believe that?! Time is going so fast...
Last couple days, my neck was hurting so bad. I couldn't move it. Thank god that is over now... But since then I haven't really been feeling very good to be honest, Is this what they mean with moodswings on HRT?? I am a little bit aimless. I feel like a dog without a leash, I am a slave without a owner. Sometimes I think like, ''why the hell am i doing this?'' I don't have a owner, why am i feminizing myself like this if there is nothing i'm doing with it... Princess Diamonds? She's too busy with the sissy market, our bdsm releationship has watered down. She understands that a slut like me needs guidance and cock. Ideally, I would prefer a Mistress. Some one I can look up to and that pushes me deeper down the sissy rabbit hole and cock. My sissy life has reached a plateau and I don't like it... These are not my best days... hopefully that will change soon.
This is a hot video from +- 2 years ago!! Lina Visited us and she always teases me and pegs me... Damn, If I watch my old videos, I do see a difference, I lost a lot of weight and I look way more feminin now... Nice to see some progress. Enjoy this video! xxx
The more feminin I become, the more slutty i become haha. I'm really looking forward to see how feminin I am in a couple months or even a year!! I can't wait to start my own youtube channel and perhaps even stream. Meanwhile i'll fill the time with cock. 😂🙈
