LIFE UPDATE ----------------------- Sorry sorry sorry, on tuesday, our new personal trainer arrived. He gave me a very good workout. He also told me that I don't need to lose weight anymore, but that for more feminin curves I should tighten my muscles a little bit and do some light weight excersises. I am hesitant. But it's not the first one who told me this. I'll do it once a week and stick to my cardeo for the rest. Anyway, the day after that I woke up with insane neck pain. I couldn't move my neck and when I did move my neck by accident, i had so much pain I shouted it out. It was awfull. The pain even made me sick. Now is the first day that the pain is almost gone. Not completly , but I can atleast move a little bit and im not in constant pain. Joyce feels better. I did stick to my routines and today I looked in the mirror and saw that my face looks very feminin and smooth, this made me very very happy. So I have been sick for 2 days, sorry!! But I'm back now.
It's Monday, if you are a sissy, you should set a tiny mini goal for yourself this week. Comment your personal mini goal below and perhaps I can give some tips or encouragement 🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤💖
Yeahhhh I know I know... condom... It's a stranger! I'm not going to take risks 😂 But damn, I LOOOOVE it when they use my face as a fleshlight. Its probably my favorite thing in the world
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------ My feminization continues... You have now seen pictures of what I look like in real life, without make-up and a wig, and that is how I spend most of my days, I can no longer pass as a boy, but I don't really pass as a girl either, most people put me in the femboy category and that is completly fine. I don't expect everyone to know that I want to identify as female.
My feminization routine is pretty crazy now. Here is what it's like : In the morning : Shower and use special shampoo and foundation Take my hair growth pill Put on my hormones Put on my skin care routine Brushing theeth In the evening : Take my collagen supplement Put on hormones Take my High collestrol medication Brushing theeth
I'm doing my very best to become more feminin. The transition is slow and I wish I could speed things up abit. But oh well. I'm already dreaming about the things I will do once I pass as a girl. I will deffinatly try streaming and a youtube channel. I also still want 1 steady male master who owns me. But the search is difficult, mainly because I want to share everything on Onlyfans, with you. In order to do that a Master needs to sign a consent release form. But I guess soon or late it will happen.
I hope you have a nice monday too and if you are a sissy, take steps towards your own dream life too xxx
LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- Soooo I went to a magic the gathering tournament and tomorow I will do one more! :) This is me at the tournament and my playmat. It's just one selfie for now... As I get more feminin from the hormones I will be more comfortable with sharing my ''behind the scenes'' life too!! 😊 After the tournament, I went to the sissy market and greeted princess diamonds by kissing her shoes as always 😊 Kinda wish she had the time to peg me, but maybe tomorow haha.
A sissygasm from me 😍 Back from the days I had cum haha... Thanks to HRT, thats gone 😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅😅 The first orgasm on HRT and not having cum made me panick and gave me a lot of doubt. But I am glad I went trough with it. 😊
LIFE UPDATE : HORMONES ----------------------------------------------
Another picture of me without make-up, to show you the reality of being a sissy slave too, I just want to be real and show you the ''behind the scenes'' too you know... I used a day to recover from the constant stream of negativity I received from folowing politics in Belgium. But now, I am even more motivated to follow my dreams. I did a couple cool things today : 1) Invested in a personal trainer, once a week we will train together to help me achieve a better feminin shape 2) I GOT MY FIRST FEMININ HAIRCUT AAAAAAH!! I went to the hairdresser, and told her, I am growing my hair out, so I do not want to get a haircut, but google told me to atleast cut the tips every 6 weeks for it to grow. So they did that and cut it a little bit more feminin. They also gave me supplements (pills) for hair growth and suggested collagen supplements too. Wich i will be taking now... 3) I bought myself very feminin glasses!! Of an expensive brand! I don't buy any luxuary items whatsoever, but I was trying different glasses and the one that I wanted turned out to be very expensive... but i am so so so happy with it. It's from Chanel, i'll show it when i get it x 4) Bought new girl clothes !! I think I can throw out all my boy clothes now
Tomorow I have to work at the sissy market again, perhaps some new dildos have arrved for me to test 😊😝
LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- I went down the wrong rabbit hole last week. We had elections in Belgium, and the far right party doesn't like us very much. So i got scared, and watched debates and checked everything about the elections. I made my friends, family and even followers aware that our far right party is more than just strict on immigration, they want to take away my right to exist. This didn't make me very happy and made me focus on the wrong thing. Far-right did not win in Belgium, but it got very close, so maybe I did a good thing. I don't know...
After the elections and a sigh of relief, I promised to myself to never again go down that negative deep rabbit hole, that talks about problems and hate. I'm going to focus back on my sissyfication and stop using my brain to think. I think this happened because of the hormones, I think a sissy on HRT needs to be teased a lot. When you are on HRT, it is a lot more difficult for a sissy to stay in that stupid horny zone. Atleast for me...
Now that Princess Diamonds spends so much time running the sissy market (i'm super thankfull and she does it well), I am kinda without an owner most of the time, this is also something I need to change....
LIFE UPDATE : HORMONES -------------------------------------------- I have double feelings about all of this. Sometimes I look at myself and think, yes, yes you see the progress! I'm becoming more feminin. And on other days I think that there is no difference. But then my Mistress reminds me i'm only 4 months on HRT anyway and that it is slow. I am so impatient I guess. I'm abit afraid that I will not be able to pass, the same insecurities others have probably haha. But its okay, It's not like i'm sad or letting these emotions control me. Not having much changes lately. Hairgrowth is slow and I regret not growing my hair out sooner haha. Its elections time in belgium, During electrions (this is most likely the case in every country) The rights of LGBTQ+ people are under attack by the far right party. Family and loved ones who vote far right basicly vote against my right to exist, so I do my best to make them aware about this. All this extra worrying and stuff distracted me too much this week. Once I am done with my work tomorow at the sissy market, Joyce needs a reset so that I can re-focus on becomming the perfect sissy slave.
HORMONES UPDATE ----------------------------------- I reach 4 months on HRT! Time goes fast... I don't really have anything different to report besides my nipples are hurting bad. They are very sensitive. They are so sensitive that I can't sleep in my belly because when my nipples hit the mattress it hurts haha. I added a picture of me without make-up, what I look like in daily life at the moment. Hair growth is slow, and that sucks. I personally didn't have much mental problems or side effects from hormones. Others say they get more emotional or sensitive, I don't think thats hitting me as hard. I feel like I am the same person before HRT, but I am a little but more sensitive to bad news and bad things happening. For example, if something sad happens on tv i just turn the tv off because I don't want to cry. Okay, now that i'm writing this, maybe I did change a little bit. 🤣😂
A few more scenes just to tease you a little for whats comming 😝😝😝 Can't wait? The early purchase will be in ithe nbox soon xxx (will be posted for free eventually on here aswell)
I really love getting my nails done. They are glued and it lasts for a month. I truely can't hide being a sissy. The only path forward is to accept who and what I am!
I couldn't resist to already upload a small clip of the video haha. The guy was really into big boobs and made me wear those so I listened of course. I really need to fix some kind of bed or go to an hotel room or something. 😂
LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- Well yeah, finally some cock. 😍🙈 I really needed that. I did got fucked and I accidently gave him a ruined orgasm. 😂🙈 I moved abit and he pulled out just as he was about to cum woopsie. We took a few videos and pictures together. I bet you want to see more already! I will post them for free on my Onlyfans wall as usual, but if you really can't wait (or you want to support me a little bit extra), I will send all the pictures and videos as a PPV for $5 aswell. You can also really see my tits on this picture! 🙈😂
LIFE UPDATE --------------------- I don't know what happend but something inside me clicked. I had a month or 2 where I wasn't really submissive, just me working and feminizing my body but not being the slut I am born to be. And something changed... I think it is because i'm almost out of that awkward ''in between'' phase i think. I'm starting to see feminin features in myself and it motivated me or gave me an extra spark to keep going deeper down the rabbit hole. Today I threw away all my male sports clothes. I went to the store and bought female running clothes and running shoes. No more male things for me. In the afternoon I had a microneedling radiotherapy session. It is a skin improving treatment to make your skin smoother. I'm still in abit of pain but that's fine. I am used to pain haha. I am chatting with potential masters a lot right now and i'm ready to be owned by a ruthless male master. Princess Diamonds is my girlfriend but a slave like me needs a Master. Princess is too busy with other slaves and with the sissy market and that is okay.
LIFE UPDATE ---------------------- I said before that my sexdrive / libido changed because of the hormones, but last weeks I have been nothing but horney. And that got me thinking. I am not a sissy slut right now.... I'm way too focussed on my looks and being pretty. I don't have a guy who fucks me or a master who humiliates me and makes me do stuff... My purpose has always been to become the best dumb sissy fuckdoll ever, not... this... I think i got off track a little bit. Too focussed to work on my insecurities and looks while I should be focussed on getting fucked & humiliated instead. I think it's time to fullfill my destiny.
LIFE & HORMONES UPDATE -------------------------------------------- Reaching 4 month on hormones. It kinda sucks. It sucks that I'm not as feminin as I want to be yet. The proces is slow and it sometimes plants seeds of doubt in my small sissy brain. Will I ever pass? Will I ever look feminin enough? I don't know. Sometimes I take pictures, and I see no difference, maybe even worse than before. But then at other times, I see a big difference. I went live on Onlyfans yesterday just to chill and I love how small my shoulders look and that my skin looks smooth and feminin even in the bad lights of my room. In the past, I didn't want to livestream because I tought I wasnt feminin enough haha. Sometimes I see the progress and sometimes I don't. Is this what they call gender dysphoria? I don't know. I just wish I could skip a couple months ahead and get out of this stupid in between phase. On a positive note, My sexdrive/libido is increasing again. Been chatting with a few guys and i really get turned on and transform into a hungry cockslut, more than ever before. I'm happy with that. Hope you like the hot pics! :)
I promised to keep it real. This is really what I look like today. Of course, when the stores open i'll be wearing a wig. But this is the first time i'm wearing a skirt in public haha. My hair is a mess. It's growing but it is taking some time. Time to put that banana where it belongs! 😂❤️ Always be yourself x
LIFE UPDATE -------------------- Pfff have been sick today. I'm not very sick often,s oemtimes I just sleep bad and then my neck hurts and it goes to my head and then I get an headache for a day. Blegh. This sucks a lot because yesterday I was chatting with a very dominant guy and he really turned me on and I was ready to complete his task but now I had to dissapoint him. I'm really ready for my next steps down the sissy rabbit hole. My feminin body isn't something I can hide away anymore. I am a sissy, everywhere and every moment.
LIFE UPDATE ------------------------ I had a great weekend. I took a little break from the online world and spend some time with my brother (who is really supportive of my transition). We played together in (3 magic tournaments) and I finished in the top 8 on each of those, that was a lot of fun. Magic for me is a great escape, to think about something else for a while. (Not getting fucked) haha. I think it's healthy to have a 2nd hobby. Transition is going good, I kinda started to get used to looking feminin in public. So far, nobody has insulted me, not even once. So thats nice. (I don't fear insults or anything, people can't hurt my feelings, but still, its nice!) Still in this stupid ''in between'' phase. That sucks a little bit. I hope you had a great weekend too. :)
