I’m thinking about you, tonite. In 20 years, you’ll be an old man, plumper and balder. With someone else blowing you. You’ll tilt your head back and close your eyes. You’ll brush back her hair with your hand, and see my face.
My green eyes staring up at you, as you cum straight down my throat — balls cradled softly in my hand.
I’m still making you cum.
Hi guys. I’m feeling kinda shitty tonite. Idk how healthy it is for me to look at pics of myself, tbh. I’m sick of my own face and body. I’m touch starved and I haven’t kissed, or touched, anyone else in probably about a year and a half. Smth like that.
I don’t know how to get close to humans any more. It’s not OnlyFans that is the issue. It’s just me. I don’t know how to let myself get close to anyone or even meet anyone. I feel like a husk.
Tonite I drank a beer, ate some very tasty handmade chili noodles, and then I took some pictures. Please enjoy them. Feel free to tip me (pretty please 🥺) and tell me how much you appreciate them. I does mean a lot to me. And this broke ass bitch needs money to survive life, too.
I guess no one survives life, tho.
Good nite.
I’m letting myself think abt you today.
2024-11-29 00:45:33 +0000 UTC View Post
Ok human beings. I’m just gonna be incredibly fucking transparent here, and say that I hate this plate … form. Uploading videos is sometimes impossible. I don’t know if it’s me, or if it’s OF, but I think it’s actually this goddamn fucking plate * form. Sorry for the figurative French. But also not sorry, because wtf. I want to share a little update video re:book club with you guys but I CANNOT FUCKING UPLOAD THIS SHIT and I will be penalized if I make inquiries as to whether you’d follow somewhere else. Like wtf. Don’t even answer that shit because, I’m a rule follower and I fear reprimand. 😭🙃 lol (did you enjoy that?)
I don’t make enough money on this plate cough form to justify the degree of anger that not being able to complete uploads brings me. I’m not even being facetious. I’m so fucking serious. I want to be here, but it’s so hard when it takes the PLATE fucking FORM 20 thousand years to process a video, during which I cannot close the tab, and then, bb. Then, my dear sweet reader, it does not fucking upload the video.
UGH. Kisses.
Do you want to join my book club?
2024-11-03 04:49:38 +0000 UTC View Post
A selection of fine, hand picked, fresh off the proverbial vine, pictures featuring yours truly. If you’ve been yearning to see me bent over, displaying my little treasures from the back… mischievous, horny, and in desperate need… then this is for you. ;)
This is a set of 40 pictures, in which I playfully display my bendiness, fondle my breasts, shake my ass for you, and bend over so that you can see everything you’ve ever wanted, on full display. 🍑
Ps! This set also includes several playful pics that I took after taking this set! So be prepared for a bit of candid sweetness that I’m not sharing anywhere else.
Ok guys. I recorded this a couple of weeks ago. I don’t even remember what I was rambling abt, but I figure that you’d probably like to hear my voice, and I need to push myself to share things and stop being so ummmm reclusive and weird?
Btw, it was recently suggested to me that my afore promised phil videos are still anticipated by some of you. Here’s an anecdote: I made a phil video a while back, shortly before I stopped posting longer videos. And, I got rly weird and emotional talking abt Parfit??? lololol Needless to say, I didn’t think it would make for an enjoyable and sexy time, for you! Haha
I haven’t ever really gone into great detail abt my academic career and my relationship to philosophy, but I think I did realize that I was going through some sort of grieving process for a life and career that I spent so much time and effort on. Achieving any degree of success in academic philosophy is hard as fucking fuck, and you simply cannot accomplish this without dedicating the majority of your time, and mental activity to the work. So, it makes sense that I’d become emotional when I am first attempting to speak abt it, after fleeing academia for my literal life. lol (I am not being hyperbolic.)
Having said all of that, I really DO still want to make philosophy videos! Lmao Of course, I am still a philosopher! How could I not (be)? As previously mentioned (did you check your mail? lol) I am feeling much better of late, and I’ve been contemplating making less ramble-y, and more structured videos. Expect some surprises forthcoming, tho you should also expect things to take longer than I (or you) anticipate.
Hello lovely human beings. 💕
Would you like to see more of me? I have been feeling particularly well lately, and I’m thinking I might be up to filming something. ;) How would you feel abt a video pertaining to my tattoodles? (Excuse the diminutive; it’s who I am.)
Please tell me that you’d like to see smth, so we can manipulate my brain together! (Read: encourage me lol) In the mean time, I hope you enjoy these pictures from the past few days. Not in chronological order.
No makeup. No bra. No filter. lol As I said, it’s who I am.
Ps!!!
Someone purchased one of my older videos today and it made me so happy; that is what inspired me to make a post today. So, thank you. You know who you are. It made me smile.
It was this one, in case you’re feeling nosy :p lol
https://onlyfans.com/940477335/theferalphilosopher
Hello humans. 😘
I considered making this a poll, but I cannot seem to figure out how to make polls anonymous (for me, ie such that I cannot see who is answering in what manner). Alas.
I just want to know: do you enjoy my content? Do you feel that you are somehow better for following me? I don’t mean, are you inspired, or improved in some way (what); I merely mean to ask if you find some small joy in my content. Does it make you any happier, make you smile, or even simply feel physically pleasant?
I am not asking because I’m thinking abt making my page PPV (I’m not). I’m just being a weirdo, and wanting to know if I’m doing some minute bit of good for anyone.
Idk, just humor me, ok? HAHA
I wish I could make an anonymous poll. I suppose you could like this post, which is also not anonymous to me. Bummer.
Had a little snack last nite, and I felt like sharing. ;) Enjoy! 😘
2024-08-12 02:24:47 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello there bb’s.
Please enjoy this set of 11 pictures, in which I give my pussy a lil taste. I bet you’re already getting hard, just thinking abt that juicy treat. ;)
Hello, lovely human beings. 💕
I am back. However! lol I am experiencing a certain degree of anxiety, in returning to OF. I think this is to be expected, any time one takes an extended absence from an endeavor. Perhaps, *especially* one that is semi public. I suspect that I am experiencing something akin to imposter syndrome. Looking back at these pics (I took them yesterday 😊), there are things that stand out to me: I need to get back into the practice of spending time figuring out the tripod angles, I need to get myself another light like wtf wtf wtf with the lighting GAH, idk… various other technical issues that became more apparent to me upon review. Sweet; I can work on those things.
But then there is the body. My body. This body that you see here. I have always struggled to feel attractive. I am just not predisposed to have positive assessments of my image. lol And guys. I am turning 40 next month. 🙈 I don’t even want to talk abt it! lol
I am so fucking tempted to run through a list of attributes that I perceive to be egregious aesthetics flaws, which I possess. I want to use my logical stupid brain to explain why my opinion is actually correct, or at least justified. I want to do so in the name of transparency; *you* need to know that I am so so so flawed! I AM VULNERABLE, DAMN IT. Haha
But I won’t do that tonite. Rather, I will say: this is what I look like. These are the top 40 (including a PPV post of 11 pics that I’m also planning to share 😘) pics, from hundreds that I took. So, perhaps I should say that this is what I look like at my best, in some conditions? LOL Whatever.
***Here’s the point:***
Show me if you want to keep seeing me? I believe my internal data (hi, brain), but I also believe external data. Help me manipulate my squishy, mooshy brain-part! Like this post. Or tip it. Or buy, and like, the forthcoming PPV post. Comments are cool beans, too!
I am planning to make a video tomorrow, and it’d be so sweet to see the notifications while I’m getting ready. 🩷
Ok!!!! Good nite, bb. ;)
When she’s a throat goat, but also (relentlessly and unironically) the weird girl. 🙄
(Alternatively: when he thought I was manic pixie pixie, but I was just awe tissy tissy)
Finding catharsis tonite.
Imagining touching a hot iron to your skin, lightly at first. Just so that I can know you’re experiencing the full breadth of sensation. And then pushing it straight through. I want you to feel it all. I want you to hurt; the thought soothes my heart and calms me.
Fuck you. Again, and again, and again.
But I can find joy in the mundane, too. The corners of my mouth curl, knowing that you will always have another hangnail. Another grey hair. Another anxiety inducing chest pain.
Please, please suffer. I need you to suffer so that I can have sweet dreams.
Hi guys. Turns out I have fucking covid. Feeling super gross and disgusting, so I decided to share. lol Please send me love, or smth.
I had it once previously, a couple of years ago. This time is definitely less shitty, but still pretty shitty nonetheless.
Hey guys. Here’s a random assortment of some pics I took the other day.
I’m bored and lonely. Still not home. Still visiting family.
There isn’t much to say besides that. I’m just lonely and bored and going a little stir crazy.
Hi, hello, and good morning.
I am currently listening to the song I just shared ^^^ after smoking a lil lil. I haven’t smoked in a couple of days, and it feels pleasant. Especially given that I’ve been having nightmares multiple times, every single nite during this trip. 🙃 Traveling always stresses me, to say the least. I am happiest in my own backyard, despite (or because of?) having traveled quite a lot throughout my life.
Anyways. I thought of a fun game we could play, and it’s called If You Love Me, Then Tip Me.
Srsly. Show me you love me, in a way that I can fucking feel. ;p lol Ohhhhh! How ‘bout whatever I can raise on this post in tips, **OR** ppv purchases, or however you want (except customs, because I would have to ask you to wait too long!), over the next two weeks… I will get that amt of cash and literally make every single dollar touch me. I can cum on it if you want. lol Whatever, sry now I’m just horny. Ok, nite. Plz enjoy this silly picture in the meantime.
Ps! It’d take longer than a 2 week turnaround time on my end, I hope that’s pretty obv. OF doesn’t payout for 7 days. 😅 tmi? 4th wall who?
Bb’s first shower video!!!
Just over 20 mins of ass, tits, and good clean-dirty silliness while I soap up my body. I also have a bit of creamy, drippy, ooey-gooey fun on my tits. ;)
Adam Sandler girl summer.
If I look exhausted and gross, it’s because I am. I’ve been traveling by train, plane, and automobile, and I am ready for a good fucking sleep. See y’all soon.
Greetings, fellow human beings. 🌻💕
Just a couple of goofy ass pics of my makeup in different lighting, and a very ramble-y video, during which I lotion my body. Please enjoy!
Who thinks I should take some fun pictures tomorrow? Or film smth? Tell me, I’m trying to amplify my motivation. Haha
I’m feeling a bit motivated today, because I did a minuscule amount of writing yesterday, and upon reflection, I realized that I still really enjoy it. This has me feeling excited to figure out what my next project will be, and more motivated in general. I always need a brain project! Ballet > hair > philosophy > ??? (In order of appearance, not importance. lol)
Please enjoy this vintage Philosopher Ashley. And by fuck, if you’ve ever jerked it to my stuff, but you’ve never purchased, then feel so incredibly welcome to tip me on this post. Come on, sir. You can think dirty thoughts abt me while you do it and I promise you it’ll make me rly rly 💦 when I see the notification. ;) :p lol
Ok, bye.
I donno why y'all are even following my inconsistent ass! lol Idk.
**Tiny lil update:**
I’m still feeling so much better. Especially re: mental health stuff. Even my adhd stuff is feeling more in-check when I have my meds consistently. But I’m always tired as fuck! With migraines and pain.
My therapist was recently like “why do you even come in, you’re so self sufficient” when it comes to my ummmm, mental health stuff. Like, I’m ok with who I am, and I am generally feeling much happier and stable, despite having some less than great life occurrences recently. But I’m still always tired as fuck, and in some degree of pain.
I panicked at her suggestion that I didn’t need to be there, but now I am like. Hm. Maybe you’re right. Maybe my brain health is on the upswing, but I need to attend to the body part. I’m not upset abt it, tho I am a bit nervous because I’m not used to having physical body concerns. (I mostly ignore and downplay any pain. Or, I have.)
Anyways. Have an appt coming up, and I’m just gonna throw that at the physician’s figurative feet. I’ll make up a little outline of everything I want to say. It'll give my brain smth to do.
Idk, y’all. I’m really happy you’re still here. lol hopefully I’m not scaring you off now. I do hope I start feeling well enough to make content more frequently again. I do enjoy taking fun ass pics. Of my ass. lol But, for instance, I literally got a migraine whilst taking the blue dress pics. I love that dress, tho.
Ok!!!!
*Kisses and gentle touches and caresses*
Hello Humans. ;) Hope your Sunday is swell.
I’ve been feeling increasingly well recently, despite random life bullshit. It helps that I’ve had my meds consistently available. I’ve gained a lil weight too, and idk. I’m pretty happy with the décolleté area. Haha
I’ll take some better (???) pics to share soon, but enjoy this random assortment of my grungy ass self, from today.
Hi guys! No point to this post except that I was a lil 🍃 and having fun taking pics of my phalanges and nail polish yesterday. Hehe 😘
2024-05-21 21:10:17 +0000 UTC View Post
